I am scared of ending up alone if i can't find a good partner or people in my life.

A very good friend of mine has a son who is very bright but awkward. He has a mild form of asperhers. She was very worried, he had difficulty making friends. So, a friend invited her to start going to her church. In no time he had friends, was dating a really nice girl, and an active social life.

Church may not be for you, but if you have an open mind give it a shot.