I feel so hurt today, but I did it to myself
So I always give a hundred second chances because I believe in love.
But there comes a point when enough is enough. I thought finaly we agreed that we both would take time just for ourselves and catch up. Like I asked her to- I will tell her what is up in my life when we get the chance to talk properly( or when she gets the time because she is always distant. That would have been better said, but wouldn't be good saying it to her)
And what happens? She leds me on to believe this is it, we have some time to catch up after months of barely saying hi. I tell her the scoop of what I have been going through lately and only for her to say ' I'm sorry, I need to do xyz' and doesn't get back to me until hours later. Just cutting of a conversation which didn't last ten minutes mind you. And of course she didn't share anything about herself and what is going on in her life.
She got the scoop, stopped the conversation before talking about herself.
Do I feel like a fool....yes. I should have just kept quiet. I should have known she'd do this. Making me believe she wants to connect when all she wants is the latest scoop.
It's not that she is busy, she just avoids talking about herself. But she loves to know other people's business. From now on, she will have to earn my time, she will have to earn me telling her anything.
She doesnt reciprocate. She doesn't even want to talk about her emotional distance. She always has "to really go". Then go. I'm setting you free. You don't get to psychoanalyze me when you yourself don't get what you are.
You're an avoidant attachment personality. Figure it out yourself. All you do is hurt the ones who love you.
Now I know where I stand after many times of trying, telling about the way I feel.
I realize she only loves the ego boost she gets when keeping someone at arms length and thinking they won't leave.
But guess what? I had enough of feeling humiliated. When life gets easier, you will find time to love again? That’s basicaly what you said to me.
Love doesnt work that way. You don't give up on love when life gets tough if you truly love a person. Life never gets easier. So by your logic, it would take a lifetime for you to stop and realize you have given up on love
But there comes a point when enough is enough. I thought finaly we agreed that we both would take time just for ourselves and catch up. Like I asked her to- I will tell her what is up in my life when we get the chance to talk properly( or when she gets the time because she is always distant. That would have been better said, but wouldn't be good saying it to her)
And what happens? She leds me on to believe this is it, we have some time to catch up after months of barely saying hi. I tell her the scoop of what I have been going through lately and only for her to say ' I'm sorry, I need to do xyz' and doesn't get back to me until hours later. Just cutting of a conversation which didn't last ten minutes mind you. And of course she didn't share anything about herself and what is going on in her life.
She got the scoop, stopped the conversation before talking about herself.
Do I feel like a fool....yes. I should have just kept quiet. I should have known she'd do this. Making me believe she wants to connect when all she wants is the latest scoop.
It's not that she is busy, she just avoids talking about herself. But she loves to know other people's business. From now on, she will have to earn my time, she will have to earn me telling her anything.
She doesnt reciprocate. She doesn't even want to talk about her emotional distance. She always has "to really go". Then go. I'm setting you free. You don't get to psychoanalyze me when you yourself don't get what you are.
You're an avoidant attachment personality. Figure it out yourself. All you do is hurt the ones who love you.
Now I know where I stand after many times of trying, telling about the way I feel.
I realize she only loves the ego boost she gets when keeping someone at arms length and thinking they won't leave.
But guess what? I had enough of feeling humiliated. When life gets easier, you will find time to love again? That’s basicaly what you said to me.
Love doesnt work that way. You don't give up on love when life gets tough if you truly love a person. Life never gets easier. So by your logic, it would take a lifetime for you to stop and realize you have given up on love
31-35, MNew
