I miss the simpler times…

Just need to vent but tomorrow I have court and my daughters dad doesn’t want her to live with me because of my current domestic situation, I always handle it , the ex has been in and out of jail because I haven’t moved but I pray the judge will let my daughter live with me one day once I get my stuff together and move away from this area I live in. Most days I cry , I’m so angry I let someone get me to the point where I have no control over my first child, behind their mental issues. . I miss the younger me, I miss reading books and watching tv knowing no guy was stalking me . I can’t even enjoy my birthday which is today , I pray that god will help me get all the things iv lost , time , money , photos..my only wish is peace , I always wish my abusive ex was dead , Imagine someone stalking you, they have nothing better to do but waste their life..