How swiftly we come and go

I don’t know where to talk, so here it is….

I’m positively heartbroken right now. It’s been so wonderful having my best friend back. The one and only person who really GETS me. Someone who actually WANTS to listen to me talk and CARES what I’m actually saying. The adult I enjoy spending time with more than any other on earth. My heart has been so full….and now they’re gone again.

I get it. I do. I respect that they need more time. I respect that they’re trying to do what is best. I really hate the void left without them though. I really hope one day they’ll return. Already, I keep checking my phone hoping they’ve changed their mind. I know it’s going to be a while though…..

The timing of all of this is so crazy. I’d felt like I was about to go through a transition. And you know, usually, you don’t see the transition coming. You don’t see it at all until it’s done. You may see the bricks that hit you, but you don’t realize the full effects until the bruises show and you find yourself healing from whatever emotional repercussions follow. Some transitions are bad, some are good, but they’re always filled with lessons and self growth.

So many coincidences came all at once for this one. It’s weird that I saw it coming before it even came. Honestly, I think I have such a connection with this person…I think I felt them coming, I just didn’t know it. After all these years…I suddenly had this day where I just felt this change coming. I felt the transition coming….two days later, there she was.

I’d like to say more, but I’m out of time….maybe next time…..but for now, she’s gone. All I have left is this piece I’d my heart that will always be hers.