Weird ass rant

I met her today. She was so beautiful. Her smile was so radiant that I kept quiet in my corner to just watch her do as she pleased. Occasionally I'd peek to look at her to just smile. Time faded. Everything felt so different.

She kept asking me where I was lost but I could barely tell I'm lost in you.

I drove her to her hotel. Watched her leave for good. She wanted me to be friends so I wouldn't be hurt.

I just said we were never a thing. I held my tears. Had my game face on. Told her to be happy. Told her to not peek inside my head as it's broken.

How could I hurt her? Even though she hurt me. I couldn't. She seemed like a kid to me. Someone I love so deeply that I can't hurt. I ended up telling her to be happy and move on. I bid her goodbye and left.

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Jenny1234 · 51-55, F

Why can’t you be together?

Beatbox34 · 31-35, M

@Jenny1234 Idk.

She was like I'm too hurt. You should marry someone else. I can't trust a guy again. I don't even know if she's into me as she once claimed despite me noticing her smile everytime I called her cute or said something like I have feelings for you.

I really don't know. Long story short, she doesn't need me. So I'll be detaching and showing myself out eventually.

Eddiesolds · 61-69, M

This is really sad.

Beatbox34 · 31-35, M

@Eddiesolds It's okay.

It is what it is lol. I guess I'm not meant for it.

REMsleep · 41-45, F

Thats sad but it was probably lust. Imagine when the real thing comes.

Beatbox34 · 31-35, M

@REMsleep I wasn't lustful. She may have been. I never touched her once. I never even laid my finger on her in the time I knew her.

Maybe she was. But it's okay. To each their own. I knew what I felt and where my heart was.

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