Show love every chance you get!
In late 2019-early 2020 before Covid came to be, I used to work with a girl, I always admired her from a far.. but I guess in my heart I never figured we could ever be together. She was married at this current time. Then the unexpected happened and she actually got to train me on a work shift and after one shift I could see how many similar things we had in common. Then after some time elapsed we started to text back and forth and after only our first conversation she had me. I had never been in love before, and it was the most amazing feeling I’d ever had. We began to grow closer and closer and I still remember telling her for the first time how I loved her. After some time of us communicating back and forth her partner had discovered that we were texting and needless to say that had basically ended the relationship. Through that we were able to start our journey together. And for the longest time it was truly wonderful.. but then things started to take bad turns due to poor choices I had made “mainly being untruthful about things I was ashamed of”
Anyways if you’ve read this far I assume you’ll read the rest, it’s now been just under 10 months since I’ve spoken to her.. I wish I would have tried harder.. now I don’t have any contact with her at all.. and I just feel so sick.. like a weight is on me that I can’t get off.. I take full responsibility and consequence for the relationship ending. It was only just recently I learned that her mother had passed away.. and that feeling amplified even worse not being able to be there to provide comfort and love..
I guess my main point of this is that, if you do have someone you love and things are on the rocks, try as hard as you can to love and appreciate your significant other while things are good! don’t only try hard when they are bad.. make them feel like they are your entire universe so when the bad times do come “ and they will “ as all couples have of course. You can traverse them easier. Show love and appreciation every day, the saying stands true you never know what you have until it’s gone, and the feelings I feel though nothing compared to what I put her through are the worst I’ve ever experienced.
Anyways if you’ve read this far I assume you’ll read the rest, it’s now been just under 10 months since I’ve spoken to her.. I wish I would have tried harder.. now I don’t have any contact with her at all.. and I just feel so sick.. like a weight is on me that I can’t get off.. I take full responsibility and consequence for the relationship ending. It was only just recently I learned that her mother had passed away.. and that feeling amplified even worse not being able to be there to provide comfort and love..
I guess my main point of this is that, if you do have someone you love and things are on the rocks, try as hard as you can to love and appreciate your significant other while things are good! don’t only try hard when they are bad.. make them feel like they are your entire universe so when the bad times do come “ and they will “ as all couples have of course. You can traverse them easier. Show love and appreciation every day, the saying stands true you never know what you have until it’s gone, and the feelings I feel though nothing compared to what I put her through are the worst I’ve ever experienced.
26-30, M
