I finally found the woman to marry and got her to be my girl
I’ve been close friends with Brii since she was 16; she liked me when she was 16 but I was trying to be with someone else at the time and she was a little young, so while I found her gorgeous and lovable and cared for her deeply while finding her very attractive, I didn’t go for her at the time.
Ever since she turned 18 I did try, but never was I able to persuade her
I had gained weight from being depressed over Tori, my friend who I had been trying to be with back then, and I wasn’t the positive smiling happy person I had been then
Now Brii is 21 and has a two year old son, events in our lives kept bringing us closer to each other, both trouble and blessing, and we got to where we saw each other more or less every day, longer and longer, until most days we connected around 11 am and spent time together until around midnight to 2 am, both smoking weed and me helping her with her college work and just going to pretty places
I fell in love with her so bad it drove me nuts to walk away from her 100 feet, and I tried with everything I had to persuade her but I just couldn’t
One day, she fell asleep while driving, or so it seemed from the outside. Not really sure what happened, but I shook her and tried my best to wake her up all to no avail
We wrecked; she had her seatbelt on by the grace of God, I didn’t.
I hit the windshield and I was bleeding so much I couldn’t open my left eye for the blood pouring down the left side of my face and head
I thought that the car was on fire because there was smoke, so I got her out asap and was checking on her. She wasn’t significantly hurt at all, just sore from the seatbelt and airbag which left some light bruising on her
She could tell that all I cared about was her being ok when I was bleeding all over, and she saw me bleeding so much and she cried saying what have I done to you
I told her that it doesn’t matter and as long as she is ok everything is just fine
We were so close after that I didn’t even feel clingy anymore, insecurity was gone, though of course I chose to have her company almost every minute I could since then I haven’t felt like I needed to just wanted to
I still couldn’t persuade her to be mine, so I let it go and prayed
That same day, my friend Chris that I call Robin Hood asked her if she wants to date me or not since I had made a half joke toward her about romance
She said she was afraid of losing me if things didn’t work out; I told her truthfully that she is far too precious to me for me to ever let her go no matter how bad I got hurt
She said she didn’t want things to change, that things had been going so good recently; I told her what had already been in my heart, that I had already been treating her like she was mine during that time apart from respecting her boundaries as I knew she wasn’t mine.
The next day, she gets nasty texts from a new number that was probably her ex
She let me answer it and said I should tell him that I’m her man now
Of course I did, in a very mature manner, saying that a miracle has happened and she is mine now, and that I will love her and take care of her as long as we both live so she will have no need of any other man
That was yesterday; to be honest, just holding her hand makes me happier than I think another woman even could in any way
I love her so much
Edit: I posted this on Facebook thinking of her after a wonderful day with her
@1Dogma sadly she was only mine for a short time, then she relapsed and went to her ex, but broke up with me before going to do it
We talked about getting married after all that, but then she had to go to rehab for CPS and the devil keeps throwing anything he can at us because we will bring each other closer to God