I'm not an affectionate person although I am very friendly and outgoing. I have often seen my parents sitting or laying on the couch watching TV like it's nothing. I've slept in their bed as is customary (they only made me sleep with someone else so they could do the husband/wife thing) and come into their bedroom while they were underdressed only to immediately run back out shocked and self conscious. They've had to literally drag me back into the room and assure me that I'm doing nothing wrong and tell them what I want already. It bothers me for some reason when I see my parents who been together for 30 years as of last month being affectionate and enjoying couple life. They call each other affectionate names, joke openly, and respect each other so well....yet I can't pick up on the example and feel comfortable with my partners. I honestly can't remember a time that I called my longtime ex girlfriend now baby's mama anything affectionate. Yes she lived with me but I guess I just can't emotionally invest in a relationship?
