Wishes....if they were horses, beggars would ride right? Stop wishing, and in it's stead, get on with yer life. Improve your standing in your work force. Succeed, sock money away, save....invest upgrade your position. Somewhere, along that route, I promise you, you WILL find the person who is meant for you....but right now, as difficult as it may be, you need to release that desire, and propel yourself along a parallel track. It will come, but let it catch you on the fly while you're securing your financial future perhaps.