I found this thing from a novel I wrote when I was 14, lol.
Don't love me, I scream internally.
Even through all the pain my heart carried, I have never been able to cry.
I was drought. I was empty.
Any insult, any compliment, I am indifferent to in question of sentiment.
I know that it hurts. I know that it saddens me. And i know that it breaks my heart. But even then, my eyes don't fog up at all.
Is it possible for a person to cry without tears coming from their eyes?
Is it really necessary?
It is what i do most nights, days, and evenings. No one noticed because there is no trace of humidity in my eyes.
Don't feel anything for me, I plead. I am not a trustworthy person.
I am a person who has lost their soul. I am a person that, since the beginning, has never been able to do anything right. I am an idiot, i know.
Don't look at me, I lie. I want your eyes on me always.
With your sweet voice, caress me with every desperate note and creak of your throat. I am weak.
Get away from me, it's the best thing, i think. Someone as perfect as you is not someone for me. Nor i for you. Please leave.
Let everything die, I sigh. My voice breaks, even within my cephalic coat. It's pathetic. I hope you will obey my orders, and that you will stop being so attentive to me, and that you will stop trying to understand all the things i do.
Do you really want to see me cry for real? I will end as dust, the same way i came into this world.
I am done warning you.
Be free, fly without me. I'm sure you'll be a lovely angel.
Forget me when the moment comes. Do not fill yourself with me. You are pure. Do not remember me, clean that part of yourself. Erase me completely and totally. Every track, and place in which i have been.
I do not deserve being in your memories and thoughts. Close your eyes, and do not see me anymore. I am not worthy.
(Note: I was experimenting with writing in a different language, so this is a literal translation, lol)
Even through all the pain my heart carried, I have never been able to cry.
I was drought. I was empty.
Any insult, any compliment, I am indifferent to in question of sentiment.
I know that it hurts. I know that it saddens me. And i know that it breaks my heart. But even then, my eyes don't fog up at all.
Is it possible for a person to cry without tears coming from their eyes?
Is it really necessary?
It is what i do most nights, days, and evenings. No one noticed because there is no trace of humidity in my eyes.
Don't feel anything for me, I plead. I am not a trustworthy person.
I am a person who has lost their soul. I am a person that, since the beginning, has never been able to do anything right. I am an idiot, i know.
Don't look at me, I lie. I want your eyes on me always.
With your sweet voice, caress me with every desperate note and creak of your throat. I am weak.
Get away from me, it's the best thing, i think. Someone as perfect as you is not someone for me. Nor i for you. Please leave.
Let everything die, I sigh. My voice breaks, even within my cephalic coat. It's pathetic. I hope you will obey my orders, and that you will stop being so attentive to me, and that you will stop trying to understand all the things i do.
Do you really want to see me cry for real? I will end as dust, the same way i came into this world.
I am done warning you.
Be free, fly without me. I'm sure you'll be a lovely angel.
Forget me when the moment comes. Do not fill yourself with me. You are pure. Do not remember me, clean that part of yourself. Erase me completely and totally. Every track, and place in which i have been.
I do not deserve being in your memories and thoughts. Close your eyes, and do not see me anymore. I am not worthy.
(Note: I was experimenting with writing in a different language, so this is a literal translation, lol)
