@JustImagine: The one thing I feel could help me is to have a girlfriend who I care about and who cares about me. I've never had that. And my life doesn't have a part yet fixed. I don't think there's need to torture myself and try to resolve it almost every single day, without a permanent progress made. I really wish it could have been possible. But this is my plea to GOD. I'm tired.I know I sound not good, but this what i feel and that has been affecting a part of my life. If you'd want to see the other part of my life, some of my profile stories can give a clearer view of it.