When someone engages in sexual abuse, even in words
Even encouragement of noncon fetishization or contribution by engaging an "open dialogue" with a fetishist
Even pretending to not have witnessed it and just keep scrolling instead of doing something about it.
Even in expressions like "I will dig you a new one" regardless of the speaker's communicative intent.
Etc etc etc
No matter how serious and how trivialized it is socially, I remember for decades and decades..every single name offline and online, every single instance.
I remember it.
Because remembering was a matter of life and death to me, I developed that ability/curse.
There are only few instances when I can't recall but the feeling of them doing something messed up which they need to get erased for remains in my brain.
I have never been wrong about it. Not even once.
I love myself for that. I am what I needed to have as a child.
Even pretending to not have witnessed it and just keep scrolling instead of doing something about it.
Even in expressions like "I will dig you a new one" regardless of the speaker's communicative intent.
Etc etc etc
No matter how serious and how trivialized it is socially, I remember for decades and decades..every single name offline and online, every single instance.
I remember it.
Because remembering was a matter of life and death to me, I developed that ability/curse.
There are only few instances when I can't recall but the feeling of them doing something messed up which they need to get erased for remains in my brain.
I have never been wrong about it. Not even once.
I love myself for that. I am what I needed to have as a child.
