question is it just me or

is it bad to not want to feel bothered around holidays ????
especially knowing your a total dud lol.

i was asked on a trip and the day of depature everyone left without me lol. my own family and my spouse and his family .

on top of that my bf is goin on family vacation without ,but before he leaves to go out of town he tells me one of his aunties is sick .Then half way he send me a picture of him at the casino knowing he doesnt even like casinos neither does his family .

its so much crazy stuff going on

my oven stoped working
i lost my job lol
my cell phone is off
i have barely any gas in my car

i just feel like alot of stuff is planned and i was to focused on other stuff to realize what tf was going on and on top of that i dont even have nobody to talk to about it .

this is great .

god wanted me to be separated from everyone for a reason and now i know why .