I Want to Be Happy

I Finally Realized...... I am not happy, I drink every night to feel something, to feel excitement, to feel happy. When I don't drink I get depressed, anxious, lonely even, no matter if I am truly alone or in a group of people. I am simply unhappy. I wish I could figure out a way to be happy. I have friends, I have a loving family who helps me out a lot, I have a job, I have hobbies, and yet, I am still not happy.