I Want to Be Happy

I Finally Realized...... I am not happy, I drink every night to feel something, to feel excitement, to feel happy. When I don't drink I get depressed, anxious, lonely even, no matter if I am truly alone or in a group of people. I am simply unhappy. I wish I could figure out a way to be happy. I have friends, I have a loving family who helps me out a lot, I have a job, I have hobbies, and yet, I am still not happy.

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talk143

I'm sorry to hear that you are not happy, it sounds like you are using alcohol to mask a much deeper problem. You sound like you have a lot of good stuff going for you- a good family, friends, a job and interests. Do these things make you feel excited when you think about them? when you think about 'being happy' how do you visualize it?

LadySarah09 · 31-35, F

My happiness is all in my music right now, its my sanity. Just yesterday I was so happy I got to sing at open mic night. That feeling of sure happiness when I am singing and playing music. It's like a warmth spreads over my body and I know I'm happy! I get that way sometimes, but it never lasts forever. Family not always, sometimes I just want me time, but my family wants to be closer to me, and my job, I get to see kids for a little while and that makes me kind'a happy I guess.
Thanks for your comment by the way... :)