I Want to Be Happy Truly Happy

I feel such an emptiness within me that I can't move forward with anyone. I want to be with someone, but how can I when all I can think about is the sour, unsatisfied flavor that seasons my everyday? At this very moment my heart is racing and I want to hide my feelings by indulging in the carnal comfort of another person. And yet, I know that that will never be enough. I just want to find something to actually satisfy me. I want something to actually make me happy.