I Wear A Smile To Hide The Pain

thats how I feel exactly... in school I have friends and I smile, laugh, tell jokes... my friends think I have the perfect life because I am always "happy" but to be honest when I get home its a war zone. my parents find anyway for me to feel bad, I cant talk to them about anything because they'll find a way to make me feel bad about it. i wear a smile so my friends dont feel bad for me. i smile to trick myself into thinking everythings ok. but in reality my parents dont care about me, they talk about me anytime im near them or in the car, they'll talk badly about me in front of on purpose so I can hear them, i cried on my birthday, and the thing is it has nothing to do with money, divorce, or anything like that, I wish I had enough to report it but I just can't