A thought occurring when you have forgotten how to smile

Coming all the way from a place where smile a taboo cause is dead to them killed by jealousy not any smile ,a smile on that would otherwise light up the world around you. Yes there a thousand fake smile around but they don't come from the heart and there a hundred sneers a day which I can not longer take I prefer to be hated by a genuine heart than be greeted by a smile that is empty. It is been a long time since I genuinely smile and I fear I will fake if I at all smile but down like any other I thirst to smile from the heart for the ones I love. As a child I would often smile the most for some reasons unknown that only a child would know joy filled my heart. If at all I smile it would be a smile of understanding of the true face of the world and their cruelness behind all that show they have stolen the precious little smile from that Little child. Yes if I smile at all I smile the smile of a madman who have left all the care in the world. One thing I have learnt about the world is they take and take until you have nothing left to give but I smile deep deep down beneath a surface the world wouldn't won't find or steal...... and here is the reason Jesus gives and gives till he have nothing left but his life that is how he gives back to the world and heal it's Disease .