Today brought the slow down needed. The slow down demanded. And even though I’m still under the weather, I loved the dialing back.
I loved the not fully waking up until almost 11am. A struggle even then due to poor sleep, but a blessing to have a morning I could do that.
I loved that I made my peace with not being the usual maid/chef for the house today. It was hard to ignore the collection of miscellaneous items parked on the dining room table that four guys decided to use as a catch-all this last week, but I made myself do just that.
I loved that the rain and thunder hit hard today so the sun could rest with me. The sun charges me, and I didn’t need that today. I needed the comfort of the gray, the sound of the cleansing droplets, and the low rumbles of bass vibrating in the background to remind me of the importance of taking deep, lengthy breaths.
I loved that my dog didn’t leave my side once. If I got up, so did she. Maybe she needed today too.
I loved that I opened Minecraft and continued a build with no instructions included. Just me and my creativity slowing coming to fruition as its soundtrack provided its own method of therapy.
I loved the side hug my oldest gave me when he got off of work even though I’m pretty sure he gave us all this little virus that lasted nine days for him. If that’s true, I’m almost halfway through it. I can handle that.
I loved that one of my guys brought me a grilled cheese even though I couldn’t taste it. It was amazing. Perfectly cooked. And just kind.
I loved this ridiculous reality show I’ve had on all day reminding me why I’ll never join the dating pool again. But making me awe when two people actually connect, even if it is for a short amount of time.
And I love that I still have hours left in this day of healing and peace where I can do as I please…as I need with no questions asked. Like the steam shower I’m about to immerse myself in for an extended amount of time, the golden milk I’ll have before bed, and the bowl of dry cereal I can see me snacking on because no rules apply today. Only happy places and feel-good vibes.
I loved that I made my peace with not being the usual maid/chef for the house today. It was hard to ignore the collection of miscellaneous items parked on the dining room table that four guys decided to use as a catch-all this last week, but I made myself do just that.
I loved that the rain and thunder hit hard today so the sun could rest with me. The sun charges me, and I didn’t need that today. I needed the comfort of the gray, the sound of the cleansing droplets, and the low rumbles of bass vibrating in the background to remind me of the importance of taking deep, lengthy breaths.
I loved that my dog didn’t leave my side once. If I got up, so did she. Maybe she needed today too.
I loved that I opened Minecraft and continued a build with no instructions included. Just me and my creativity slowing coming to fruition as its soundtrack provided its own method of therapy.
I loved the side hug my oldest gave me when he got off of work even though I’m pretty sure he gave us all this little virus that lasted nine days for him. If that’s true, I’m almost halfway through it. I can handle that.
I loved that one of my guys brought me a grilled cheese even though I couldn’t taste it. It was amazing. Perfectly cooked. And just kind.
I loved this ridiculous reality show I’ve had on all day reminding me why I’ll never join the dating pool again. But making me awe when two people actually connect, even if it is for a short amount of time.
And I love that I still have hours left in this day of healing and peace where I can do as I please…as I need with no questions asked. Like the steam shower I’m about to immerse myself in for an extended amount of time, the golden milk I’ll have before bed, and the bowl of dry cereal I can see me snacking on because no rules apply today. Only happy places and feel-good vibes.
46-50, F
