I Want to Be Positive About Life

Is it normal (when a loved one has died) to feel a lot of anger?

I’m not angry at my mom. This wasn’t her fault. But I’m furious at cancer. Cancer is relentless. And I’m angry at fate, or God, or whatever decides these things are going to happen.

I’m angry that my dad has had his heart broken and been diminished by this loss.

I’m angry that my brother feels the burden of doing more family stuff, in general. (I don’t live near them - or I’d be doing more of it.)

I’m angry that my niece and nephew had to feel this loss.

I’m angry that the past 5 years, it’s been one damn thing after another. Not just for me, either. It seems like the whole world is going through bad times.

Anger is exhausting. But it does give me that push I need to do things.

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lasergraph · 70-79, M

Cancer is a filthy beast and the loss will be a part of your life for a while. Your dad will especially feel it, not so much when all the family is gathered, but after they all leave and he is there alone with just his thoughts for company. We are all just penciled in. The day we are born, we know that death will be our final chapter. We will all face it and the older we get and the more of it we see, the more we think of our own mortality. I hope the pain eases soon. It will finally come and there will be peace in your heart.