Grateful that my love for solitude does not diminish my capacity to love others.

Whenever I start feeling frustrated by the kids constantly needing my attention, following me around, and taking an interest in everything I do, I remind myself that I do the same thing to Daren and more. And that my time with them is ephemeral and finite just like it was with my loved ones who passed away.

I want these children to carry the memory of the love I give them. So it must be pure and resilient and calm, completely free from the shadows of burden. It must be kind and patient and generous and sweet.

I want them to learn through my example that their worth is inherent and unconditional, never to be compromised or diminished. I want them to find a sanctuary of boundless love with me and then keep it in themselves forever so when I am gone, theìr spirits are cherished without condition by themselves always.