Picking back up on my positivity posts
Before I stopped posting I was doing my 100 Days of Happiness Challenge, which really was mostly just focusing on happiness, positivity and gratitude. I’ve been making lists each day while away, but not keeping count. Since I know my hormones are going to be wreaking havoc during this IVF cycle, and I could be facing potential absolute devastation at the end of this month, I’d really like to get back to posting in more detail. I want to work hard to hold onto the good and let go of the bad. So, here goes….
Actually, a disclaimer to say I’m not allowing myself to go into this fretting much over the outcome of the end of this month….and I’m trying to stay positive! Just, realistically, this transfer will result in me being pregnant, or my embryo won’t implant and I’ll lose my baby. So, praying hard for a successful transfer, implantation, and pregnancy!!! Anyway, gotta maintain those happy thoughts til then soooo….
Today’s happy, positive, and all the gratitude…
The first half of this day was kinda brutal. I made an earlier post about that, but the second half of the day I’ve felt much, much better. Tonight I’m feeling super optimistic, grateful, and just overall chipper! I’m incredibly grateful to be feeling better and really hoping all this estrogen will balance out and I’ll feel great tomorrow. Only a couple more weeks of this! Grateful for that too lol.
I finally got my car fixed! Again. Really hoping this car will behave itself now. I’m tired of fixing it 😂 But I’m incredibly grateful it’s fixed and that I’m fortunate enough to be able to fix all these issues it’s had over the last couple months.
I got some HUUUUGE looooong sweet peppers today. I know nothing about them, except they’re supposed to be sweet and I saw suggestions to stuff them. Something about them just excited and inspired me, and now I’m really excited to experiment with them!
I had a really lovely evening with my husband and daughter today. A lot of REAL laughter with my husband, which is just such a special treasure, and lots of precious moments with my girl. I’m so grateful my husband and I have come so far in the last few months. Honestly back in November/December I was really worried I’d have to leave him. I’m glad I didn’t give up on him. On us. He’s still a work in progress, but I honestly can’t believe how far he’s come in the last few months. And myself too.
I’m loving seeing all of my daughter’s creativity blossoming recently. Her artwork has suddenly gone from the same, repetitive little scribbles to smiley faces and a lot of very creative stuff! I love hearing her say, “I made it all by my own “ every time too 😂 She’s been playing the piano and serenading me with her favorite songs and a lot of originals too. The originals are so precious…all about friends and family and how much she loves them 🥰 She’s just such an amazing, fun toddler ❤️
I found a couple of really important notebooks today I thought I’d lost in our move! One was my quote book that I started before I ever even got pregnant with my kiddo. It’s my own inspiration book and I’d always hoped I’d have kids and one day leave it for them. It’s just quotes I’ve thought sum up the BIG lessons…things I want to ensure my kid(s) know and always remember even if I’m not around. I’m soooo happy to have found it and I can’t wait to add more…hard to know what to add, since I only put the EXTRA special ones! I’ve had that notebook since 2017 or so, and I’ve still only filled 3 pages lol. So, you know I’m strict with what goes in!
The other notebook was just one I stored a lot of random, important stuff in. I was shocked to discover I’d documented my daughter’s early days of nursing in there! Starting with her birth day. I have to say, while it was a sweet reminder, it also freaked me out a little. While I’m sooo eager to have another child, I’m also going into this knowing just how time consuming and demanding it REALLY is. But seeing that feeding schedule was a real jolt of reality!!!! Lol Thoooose we’re the days of just laying around being a never ending feeding bag 🤣 It will be interesting to see how that goes while having a toddler who always wants to play lol. BUT, it will all be worth it! And I remember being so fascinated with my girl and never being able to take my eyes off of her during all those feedings. Literally watching her grow and learning everything about her. There is nothing like getting to know your child in those first months. ❤️
I’ve been very grateful for the chats I’ve been able to have with my ex lately. You know what, I don’t want to always refer to her as my ex. I’m confident that this friendship is going to grow and last. We’ve changed and grown so much. We still have some growing to do and all that jazz, but from my perspective things are going well! Very promising. Anyway, let’s just keep it simple and call her Flask. I can’t express how grateful I am that we have reached a point where we can be friendly and have these chats. I’m grateful that she’s moving forward and is meeting/talking to new people. I’m very excited to see what lies ahead for her and I’m incredibly happy/grateful that I am able to be here and support her through it all.
My BIL stopped by to drop some stuff off and we actually had a really nice visit/chat afterward for about 20-30 minutes. It really brings me peace and gratitude that we finally have a good relationship. He ignored me and insulted me for the longest time. (He never thought his brother would keep me around lol) Then he always used to make me feel like I was stupid (common trait with the males in this family. Thank goodness he’s had a lot of self growth in the last few years. Im very thankful for that too) He’s like a whole new person compared to before. He still has his faults, but I’m very proud of him for the progress he’s made and I'm very happy we can at least be comfortable around one another and have nice talks these days.
Hmmm, I guess that’s all for today. I’ve written a book anyway. I mean, I could mention my cats, my daughter finally getting a big girl bed today, music, the tv show The Middle, and who knows what else….but overall this was simply a day that started out terrible but wrapped up quite splendidly. Longest day ever!!! Guess it just took some extra time to turn into a special day :)
Actually, a disclaimer to say I’m not allowing myself to go into this fretting much over the outcome of the end of this month….and I’m trying to stay positive! Just, realistically, this transfer will result in me being pregnant, or my embryo won’t implant and I’ll lose my baby. So, praying hard for a successful transfer, implantation, and pregnancy!!! Anyway, gotta maintain those happy thoughts til then soooo….
Today’s happy, positive, and all the gratitude…
The first half of this day was kinda brutal. I made an earlier post about that, but the second half of the day I’ve felt much, much better. Tonight I’m feeling super optimistic, grateful, and just overall chipper! I’m incredibly grateful to be feeling better and really hoping all this estrogen will balance out and I’ll feel great tomorrow. Only a couple more weeks of this! Grateful for that too lol.
I finally got my car fixed! Again. Really hoping this car will behave itself now. I’m tired of fixing it 😂 But I’m incredibly grateful it’s fixed and that I’m fortunate enough to be able to fix all these issues it’s had over the last couple months.
I got some HUUUUGE looooong sweet peppers today. I know nothing about them, except they’re supposed to be sweet and I saw suggestions to stuff them. Something about them just excited and inspired me, and now I’m really excited to experiment with them!
I had a really lovely evening with my husband and daughter today. A lot of REAL laughter with my husband, which is just such a special treasure, and lots of precious moments with my girl. I’m so grateful my husband and I have come so far in the last few months. Honestly back in November/December I was really worried I’d have to leave him. I’m glad I didn’t give up on him. On us. He’s still a work in progress, but I honestly can’t believe how far he’s come in the last few months. And myself too.
I’m loving seeing all of my daughter’s creativity blossoming recently. Her artwork has suddenly gone from the same, repetitive little scribbles to smiley faces and a lot of very creative stuff! I love hearing her say, “I made it all by my own “ every time too 😂 She’s been playing the piano and serenading me with her favorite songs and a lot of originals too. The originals are so precious…all about friends and family and how much she loves them 🥰 She’s just such an amazing, fun toddler ❤️
I found a couple of really important notebooks today I thought I’d lost in our move! One was my quote book that I started before I ever even got pregnant with my kiddo. It’s my own inspiration book and I’d always hoped I’d have kids and one day leave it for them. It’s just quotes I’ve thought sum up the BIG lessons…things I want to ensure my kid(s) know and always remember even if I’m not around. I’m soooo happy to have found it and I can’t wait to add more…hard to know what to add, since I only put the EXTRA special ones! I’ve had that notebook since 2017 or so, and I’ve still only filled 3 pages lol. So, you know I’m strict with what goes in!
The other notebook was just one I stored a lot of random, important stuff in. I was shocked to discover I’d documented my daughter’s early days of nursing in there! Starting with her birth day. I have to say, while it was a sweet reminder, it also freaked me out a little. While I’m sooo eager to have another child, I’m also going into this knowing just how time consuming and demanding it REALLY is. But seeing that feeding schedule was a real jolt of reality!!!! Lol Thoooose we’re the days of just laying around being a never ending feeding bag 🤣 It will be interesting to see how that goes while having a toddler who always wants to play lol. BUT, it will all be worth it! And I remember being so fascinated with my girl and never being able to take my eyes off of her during all those feedings. Literally watching her grow and learning everything about her. There is nothing like getting to know your child in those first months. ❤️
I’ve been very grateful for the chats I’ve been able to have with my ex lately. You know what, I don’t want to always refer to her as my ex. I’m confident that this friendship is going to grow and last. We’ve changed and grown so much. We still have some growing to do and all that jazz, but from my perspective things are going well! Very promising. Anyway, let’s just keep it simple and call her Flask. I can’t express how grateful I am that we have reached a point where we can be friendly and have these chats. I’m grateful that she’s moving forward and is meeting/talking to new people. I’m very excited to see what lies ahead for her and I’m incredibly happy/grateful that I am able to be here and support her through it all.
My BIL stopped by to drop some stuff off and we actually had a really nice visit/chat afterward for about 20-30 minutes. It really brings me peace and gratitude that we finally have a good relationship. He ignored me and insulted me for the longest time. (He never thought his brother would keep me around lol) Then he always used to make me feel like I was stupid (common trait with the males in this family. Thank goodness he’s had a lot of self growth in the last few years. Im very thankful for that too) He’s like a whole new person compared to before. He still has his faults, but I’m very proud of him for the progress he’s made and I'm very happy we can at least be comfortable around one another and have nice talks these days.
Hmmm, I guess that’s all for today. I’ve written a book anyway. I mean, I could mention my cats, my daughter finally getting a big girl bed today, music, the tv show The Middle, and who knows what else….but overall this was simply a day that started out terrible but wrapped up quite splendidly. Longest day ever!!! Guess it just took some extra time to turn into a special day :)
