From this day forward I no longer considering myself a part of the LGBTQ community.

I am going back into the closet and that's that and they have themselves to blame. I swear every single gay man I have ever met has been terrible in some way shape or form.In my past I have had gay managers and let me tell you they created so much drama and problems it wasn't even funny. I was also mistreated by them a lot. It's already hard finding a partner in the community anyway because so many don't want fats, femmes or asians and will go as far as to say that loud and proud on profiles. I am always shunned and ignored because I am a stereotypical dorky looking asian not my fault I wasn't blessed with BTS looks. I've tried for years to find someone to love but nobody wants me or it never lasts because so many of these men are unfaithful as hell. I've just been treated so damn badly by a community that is supposed to be accepting and supportive of one another. I'm done trying and I've made peace by being alone and remaining celibate until death do I depart from this world. I don't even care anymore.

It's gotten to the point where I just have started to become homophobic in a way because I've just been treated so badly. I really don't like other gay men or anything to do with them anymore. Also misogyny is a huge problem in that community anyway which is something I never understood. Most of the time women are the most accepting of someone coming out and being gay so why crap on them? You don't have to be attracted to them and that's fine but crapping on an entire gender is wrong and disgusting. I've witnessed it first hand from those managers I am talking about and from others I have run into. They'd treat the male employees fine and dump on the female employees for no reason or be way harsher on them.

Sorry my vent session isn't the most well thought out I'm really tired and emotionally charged and am just at some kind of snapping point.