I Am Going to Say Something Controversial

I wish I was anorexic. I wish I could have an eating disorder because I'd finally be skinny and pretty and someone would finally want me. I've tried to go the anorexia route in the past (teens and early 20s) but I didn't get very far. I think I would go a day or two and then give in. What an awful world we live in. Why do I always get the short end of the stick in everything in life?