The "Battle" for my Soul?

It's funny, two years ago I was praying to Jesus that it was better that He take me, because I was worried I wouldn't be able to hold on, and that I would Fall.

I felt then that it would be far better to die, than to become corrupted by the World.

I was afraid. Now I'm curious.

Maybe I want to be corrupted? I think I already am.

I'm not choosing a side anymore. I know I am not good. I hate humanity. I know I am not evil, I have saved lives.

I don't really recognize myself anymore.

It's a real pity I didn't die young.

But I've paid for my one-way ticket and I have to sit this through until the credits roll.