Bleeding out the heart 🖤🩸

😑If i close my eyes and the world drops dead
If i close my eyes will you be back besides me again





The world is desolate & dark
Just like the beating of my heart
Which makes this a fitting start
To say that we have grown apart

You said that I was tearing us apart
As if I held a razor up to your heart
As if the world was decending upon your shoulders

And my sickness was your sickness


You barely even had a heart
We barely even began to start
True lovers cross I guess
Is living with emptiness

And all the days seem like rain
And even when you go to explain
The doctor looks at you in dismay
"Well my son, I am afraid it's insanity."
Caught it from some girl with eyes that were
Pearls and hair as dark as a midnight trail
Through autumn leaves gone pale




So I guess this is finally over
and no babe I am not sober
This is very hard to do and I used to love you


I don't even want to question the why and how


I've torn these pages out
Just like you tearing out my heart
Love isn't something that ceases to exist
Love is something in you that you can never fix



You've never seen anything as beautiful as a chekovs play
You've never heard anything as musical as a cold rainy day
You've never climbed Gatsby's ladder or fallen into Dracula's grave... babe




I just want it to go back to how it use to be
I wanted it to go back to just you and me

But there is no mending no more pretending

It is better this way - you'll see -
It is better for a heart to bleed out
Than to freeze.





It is in the bleeding out that shows what you've done to me. And the murder scene you left behind looks as innocent as a back door open upon the sea side. The smell of the beach. The feel of sand and mist risen from the sea. Just you and me in the dark mindlessly laughing at each other and how simple everything truely seemed. Good bye