Magnetizing. Amazing. Unforgettable. Incredible. Never forget who you are. In every dark night, you are a star. An art form of your own. Only as much as you allow can be known. Prime actors we all are. Hiding behind facades to belong and not be thrown afar. We want to be kind. Yet we get annoyed when our desire, our immediate want, we aren’t able to find. Smile for the camera. Everybody is watching, let me fix my mascara. I did it, I’m good enough, now what? Teach others to be like me, to say and do things like that? Okay. Why do I still want approval after I got it, let me ask this question, if I may. I walk near a door cracked open just a bit. I hear what makes me want want to crawl into a pit. I thought you loved me, and there you said you were only trying to be nice? That I’m too much of that and too less of what you want, that I have a vice? Your eyes that I thought I could read, were the very eyes you used to trick me. You don’t know what I heard, but now I learned to smile when there is no reason to, that to my heart only I have the key. I want to buy a toy at a store that says insults. Then take it home and laugh, it’s just a toy, how funny the results. Then look at all people that way. Unabashed by their criticism, their dissatisfaction at my stay. I will carry this lesson with me all my life. Like a pendant on my neck, that will guard me from greater strife.
