I dont want to give up on my baby Days like these seem like it's getting tougher for my poor...

And trust me I have considered to put him down because of his suffering.. But I don't have the heart to do it. I know he's strong... I think he's up there in age.. I can't recall because he was my ex's dog. And he practically left him to me. I did try to give him back but he made a fuss about it at the time and said something like " Your trying to give him back to me because hes sick. wtf.." Waited for him to make the move on getting him back but i guess his trip to Europe was more important. So i said fuck it and kept the dog. Douche. Anyway the dog is pretty old and He loves my company especially when i sing to him. I think he may need meds for the pain but im not sure. I know that when it comes to it.. when I can tell he can't take it. Then i know it will be a hard decision but .. anything to keep him from being in pain any longer. Sending his soul back to the universe will be the best thing and the most hardest thing I ever have to do.

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Being there as his closest friend is the most anyone can do for him. I layed outside for three nights and two days when my dog was dying. He would lay up again st me and was happy as hell till the end. He was 16 yrs old and had to take heart meds. He waited for me to leave for a cup of coffee and died.
Be there for your baby. He is happy just for you to care.

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But you were there for him.Dogs especially know your feelings and he knew how you felt. You will always feel for him and that's cool. It hurts the same as losing a human loved one.
I still get choked up when I see my dogs picture. I was so close to him as you were your baby. Don't feel bad that you feel the pain of missing him.
When I lost my buddy a native American friend told me that you will start seeing him at different times. You will see him laying near you and even running in your yard or the woods. I thought he was full of it but since my dog died I have seen him laying near me while I work, just like he always did. I know it is just my imagination but I love that I have those moments to see him again. Its not a bad thing but a good thing. Hopefully you will have those moments to remind you of your best friend.

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I'm so sorry for your loss.. I know how hard it can be and I understand that nothing i can say will ease your pain.
you were there for him at the end.
you were very brave and kind..
I'm sure your little friend took comfort in your presence..
Peace......❤

MysteryInthedark · 31-35, F

Yes he is on phenobarbital. But Not too recently he had multiple seizures. some where back to back and because of that they amped up his meds for that reason. I forgot the name of the other med to aid the pheno.

MysteryInthedark · 31-35, F

At exactly 1:54 my baby has passed away in my arms.. I went to the vet due to his multiple seizures and foaming.. his meds were not working... I knew i could not do anything but to be there for him... This was the most hardest decisions I had ever made.. I feel like i didn't get to give a proper good bye..It all happened to fast.. And i feel so guilty for having him go through death like this.. He was euthanize last night.. in my arms.. I kept telling him I was there and I love him.. Im not going anywhere baby.. oh god my heart hurts.. this is such a heart clenching thing to go through..

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I would just ask the vet if he should be put down. I for one don't like to give up on an animal until the vet says he is suffering too much and should be put down. With my dog people told me eight yrs efore he died, when the vet started him on heart meds, they said to put him down. He was my best friend and until the vet said it, I did put him down. We had eight more years of great times together that I and he would have missed if I had listened to friends.
Talk to your vet. He shouldn't charge you to talk for a couple minutes about how much he is suffering.

MysteryInthedark · 31-35, F

I told him i was going through a really tough time.. "Well I did what i could to get the message out there, And yes i did volunteer to cover, but under circumstances of what had happened last night left me in a sudden Uneasy state. Look I understand your all about the business but please understand this as humanly as possible, I am Not okay. I have left another message to everyone to cover this shift. I've done what I can to get this covered." And even in the previous message i told him i was in mourning

xDanix · 31-35, F

Well. As hard as it is, I'm sure your vet explained what is likely to come next if the seizures continue in frequency despite increased medication, especially if he's an older dog. Eventually even the meds will become detrimental...here's to hoping for the best and make the most of the time you have left. Don't let him see you sad, he'll be sad too

MysteryInthedark · 31-35, F

I agree.. Super insensitive of him to say all of this "You didn't "volunteer", you agreed to take the responsibility thereof.

Your position as a team member at our store comes with responsibility, commendation, and repercussion. If you or someone else does not show up that hinders Ana, Erica, Joann, Nika, and myself. My uncle passed recently. I went to his funeral yesterday. I have worked every day since and I have to continue to work. There is nobody who can cover me. When life happens I have to leave it at the door and be the best I can for my store, my customers, and my team. I don't have another choice. When you took the responsibility you took the repercussions. I've been very easy going with you up until now and I even covered your shift for you just a few days ago.

Long and short, someone needs to be there for that shift. Your team needs your help." Honestly i wanna quit this job

MysteryInthedark · 31-35, F

He is a chihuahua

Mondayschild · F

You can give him a small amount of Benadryl to help him sleep 12.5 mg. with a bite of food. I'm sorry you are facing this.

MysteryInthedark · 31-35, F

I am being hassled by a boss to come into work for taking someone elses shift.. and this was before all of this happened.. And he is messaging me pretty much hassling me to cover this stupid shift because no one else is offering to help cover me. so he's pretty much giving me the issues about not having coverage for someone who is working alone till 1. I thinks its BS. i dont know what else to tell him.. I had already asked my coworkers if they can cover and my boss is being pretty insensitive.

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He should be able to find someone else to badger to work.

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Some people have no idea of what losing a pet is like.

Georgimy

I think u ought to do the best thing and that is to put it out of its misery , personally if I was suffering as much as u poor dog and I could get away with been put down legally I certainly would . Sorry it's a hard decision but think of suffering and no means of communicating with u:(

Mondayschild · F

I am so sorry for your loss😢

xDanix · 31-35, F

Is he on Phenobarbital?

xDanix · 31-35, F

I am truly sorry for your loss, Mystery...the loss of a beloved pet is never an easy thing to bear. You did the best you could, it was just his time. He is still with you, though...forever impressed upon you heart and mind

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Sometimes we need to make the hardest decision. .
Ask yourself this : is he suffering?
If he is then you need to decide wether you are keeping him alive for your bennifit or for his....

Mondayschild · F

How big, age and what kind of dog? My dog gets benadryl for sleep on bad nights he is restless. Do you have your dog on Phenobarb or some other kind of seizure med?

MysteryInthedark · 31-35, F

He didn't want to take that responsibility.. He basically ignored me and said i had to find someone or else its on me.

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He would love my dad. He lays said I could never be a boss because you have to be a son of a bitch to be in charge.

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Did you explain why you can't work? Would he want you working and always sad and crying