I My Dog Died

We had to put our golden retriever to sleep today. He had a cancerous tumor on his heart, and there was no hope. We started chemo to see if it would shrink it. His appetite went downhill, so he wasn't eating much. At first he showed a glimmer of hope, but he wasn't the same dog that we knew. He was my best friend. I don't have any true friends in life, so Tanner filled that void for me. His always happy personality, his eager to please attitude, and his unconditional love saved me from myself, he saved me in every way a person can be saved emotionally. The inner pain I feel is so unbearable and it hurts so bad that words can't describe it. I miss him so much. If I had the choice I would take years from my life and I would have given it to him. I would give anything for him to greet me in the driveway again, for him to give me a kiss and lick my entire face until my glasses fell off, to stick his entire face in my pocket and grab the treat(s) out of it, the way he would run like a horse through the yard, the way he jumped up on the bed at night and sprawled out so much he practically pushed me off the bed, and most importantly, the unconditional love he showed me and the way he changed my life. Tanner, you will forever be in my heart and I'm the most grateful person in the world for having had the chance to share my life with you. I love you Tanner, Rest In Peace. (2005-2015)