When I was younger, I had a cat I named Pickle

He was all black with yellow eyes. He was so sweet and cuddly and he slept with me every night, so cuddly and rolly

One day a pair of dogs ripped him nearly in half and I saw it. But there was nothing I could do

He died in an incubator at the vet. He was so precious and sweet. I wish i had protected him better

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SW-User

There are things like this, they stay burned in your mind forever. Your heart will never forget.

Sorry girl. Sorry Pickles 🖤

caccoon · 36-40

@SW-User they do. I mean I block a lot of it out for a long time but I realise it affects me haha. And before this they killed my cat Sydney. And the SCREAMS I remember still. I ran through brambles in bare feet to get to him, but it wasn't enough. He was stretched

My neighbour handed him to me over the fence and he was gone already so I buried him while my mum was at work. I wrapped him in my sweater

caccoon · 36-40

@SW-User I know it's all normal stuff and death is always tragic but ah, it's good to talk about it I guess.

SW-User

@caccoon it is. We need to talk and share even if it’s horrifying. The truth is often undesirable, but it’s the damn truth and if you keep denying it you’re digging your own hole to give up and die in.

You’ll never have to worry about freaking me out. I am listening for the real stuff.

caccoon · 36-40

@SW-User you're amazing. I admire you so much. Your words and feelings are always comforting and beautiful

I'm sorry youve suffered so, but your understanding and thoughts have helped me many times. And I'm sure countless others

So thank you 💙

SW-User

@caccoon Just want you to see the good in you. Not good vs bad, just the good that hides sometimes. The good that suffers silently. The good that screams like a crazy lady.

I don’t know about myself anymore, but I’m thankful if I can help at all. It’s all I ever wanted to do.

caccoon · 36-40

@SW-User I want you to see your good too. And realise no one deserves to walk on it. 💙 You're so good to people and some people will just see that and take it. But you desrve to have someone that will give to you 💙

Or make your own beautiful life. Which you are already doing 💙 but I respect that it's not easy.

I wish I could not sound cheesy haha but you're a very special and wonderful person