My mom called me crazy bc I'm mourning my dog's death 8 months later...

This dog was like my child. We had gone through everything together. Not to mention that before he passed away I was going through the worst period of my life. I was facing severe health problems, going through a toxic relationship where I was being cheated on, mentally abused and going through financial difficulties where even though I was working I had almost no money to my name. My dog was the only being that kept me going and holding on. His love made me feel like I had a purpose in life and I selflessly gave my all to taking care of him. He loved me and I loved him and besides God, we only had each other in this cold cruel world. Even though I have the peace of mind knowing he's in a better place where he is happy and will never go without, I am still in deep pain bc I know he is without me and I am without him. I pray every single night that God takes care of him and his brother (my cat Kit) and never lets them feel empty and unloved. Bc I am a gay man, I don't think I am ever gonna have kids and I am ok with that. This is as close to babies I will ever get and I still felt and feel blessed, but also bc of that reason my mother needs to have empathy and understand why it Scotty's and Kit's losses that still hurt me to the core of my soul to this day. Well this is end of my open rant. Thank you for those of you who actually took the time to read this. God bless and wish you all the best.

Sincerely

~Alain~

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ChiefJustWalks · 26-30

I get it completely. I ran into a house fire to rescue my dogs & I didn't succeed.
I puked & nearly passed out from smoke inhalation & couldn't find them. The firemen came, rescued me out of the house, & shortly after they brought out my dogs bodies.

I've never had another dog since. That was years ago & it still hurts like it was yesterday

alainc2490 · 31-35, M

@ChiefJustWalks I'm so sorry. I can't imagine all of the pain you've felt just bc of this incident. Just know that your babies are in a better place and please know that you will def see them again one day. Sending you and your fur babies all of the light and love in all of the universe.

ChiefJustWalks · 26-30

@alainc2490 thanks man. Surprisingly I teared up even just writing that comment. I blame myself for not saving them even though I know it wasn't possible.
But thank you man & I know you'll see yours again one day too. Some of us understand exactly how you feel

alainc2490 · 31-35, M

@ChiefJustWalks Of course and I felt your pain just reading halfway through your comment. Don't blame yourself though man. In the end I am sure your babies knew how much you loved and still love them to this day and how far you were willing to go just to save their lives, even at the cost of risking yours. Your bond will never be broken even in death.

ChiefJustWalks · 26-30

@alainc2490 one thing it taught me was how temporary everything is. Everythings temporary, including life itself. But everything else is replaceable. Life is not, unfortunately

alainc2490 · 31-35, M

@ChiefJustWalks Yes it's scary but it's a fact that we all have to accept. What hurts me about my dog passing away is that he knew his time was up and he waited with desperation until I was out of work to pick him up at my parents house just so he could pass away. It's like he couldn't pass away without knowing I was by his side. It broke my heart but at the same time it opened my eyes and showed me how deep his love was/is for me. Animals are truly pure creatures, purer than humans.