I Practice Witchcraft and Wicca

Most days, I cover myself in some layer of protective guard. I don't really enjoy letting people see who I really am. Is it because I doubt I'll get much acceptance from people when I show my true colors? Maybe. Is it because I doubt people could handle me if they knew who I truly was? I think that ties in to the last point, but I think that's a big part of it.

I've been through so much. I've been through fires and torments unlike most could ever dream of on earth. I've come out of those flames born again, born stronger, and I don't regret my past. It made me who I am today. For so long I fought with my darkness, to repent of it, to repel it, to will it away. But I realize that my darkness is a part of me. It was always a part of me. To kill that would be to kill myself, and since I'm still here that dark part of me will always remain here.

It's so sweet to think I don't have to fight anymore. I grew so tired of fighting. This revelation, that I can use this darkness instead of fighting it, is monumental. I don't have to give into it, powerless. I can work alongside it, shape it, use it for what I want. It's always been there and it will always be there. I can't tell you how comforting it is to stop fighting myself and finally except myself, entirely. Darkness, light, all of it. I can't regret who I am, I can't regret my past because of this.

I will learn, and I will grow, and I will use what's inside of me to make my way in this world. I have just enough darkness to not consume me, but to make me a powerful and potent force in this world, this world already consumed by evil. I will revel in this world and work my own magic, and it will be beautiful.

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Txpixie · 56-60, F

That's not Wicca. That's life of hard knocka.
We all have darkness within us. Our light comes from the grace and goodness we extend to humanity and living ones life in authenticity and truth.
Servitude in earnst eradicates evil.
Choose happiness and be the light.
Shine that light where there is darkness.
We are the difference it takes to make any difference at all.

Shinokama · 26-30, F

@Txpixie I respectfully disagree, partially. As I said, denying and killing my darkness would be to kill myself. I will take both and create wonderful things with it. It works for me. I respect what works for you, and I acknowledge that we work in different ways. As to defining what's Wicca and what is not, I don't know. It's customizable for each person. My way is as valid as yours, I think. I'm not one for labels though, so if you don't want to call me Wiccan, I won't be upset over it.

Txpixie · 56-60, F

I am not defining anyone by beliefs. I am defining them as human.
Nothing wrong with darkness. It provokes thought, teaches us life lessons that bring us wisdom and self awareness. It gives us insight and let's us bear witness to our capability to destroy and destruct in this life.
Religion doesn't define who we. Horse to be and what we become. We do that simply by choice.

yfma53 · 70-79, M

In my humble opinion, I think that you have found the secret of happiness. If you truly do accept yourself, all of yourself, then you love you, just as you are. Congratulations, many NEVER accept and love themselves. Love and light to you.

Shinokama · 26-30, F

@yfma53 Thank you for your comment, I really like your view on it. I am much happier now that I've accepted all of myself. So I think I do very much agree with you. Love and light to you as well.

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