Tbh it amazes me how people will avoid the truth then act hurt and/or surprised when it turns into a problem.

I really think people hide from negativity too much. It's so unbalanced.

Like building a castle in the sand then feeling betrayed when the waves come wash it away. You gotta pay attention to the whole truth, not just that the beach is beautiful. Becauce it's not just beautiful. One thing isn't just one thing. And if you make the mistake of oversimplifying it, only accounting for the good, you're avoiding the reality. Positivity can't save you and it definitely won't protect you when the truth comes calling. When the tide comes in, I'd rather be in a house of stone. I'd rather of considered everything good and bad and built from that. Not the hope that the ocean loves me and won't do what it does because I think it shouldn't.

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Boeing · 36-40

Some days I just like to allow myself, what I call my inner child, to be excited and to only see the unicorns, the stars and the birds and the flowers... I've hidden this part and I wasn't allowing her much to express, especially after I read and heard so many comments about dissociation, puela aeternus, manic depression and so on and so forth. Indeed this character has its shadows and yet since I decided to embrace her just as much as any other sides of mine, I just feel stronger and happier. I know there are times I just want to scream out of excitement because that's my naturalness and I kept it hidden because it was making people around me uncomfortable, generally humans find high pitch irritating and I'm okay with being irritating, more and more. . I just want to be free... I don't care about the rest as much... Lately..

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ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@Boeing I love this and very much needed to hear.

All of you is always welcome with me 🖤

Boeing · 36-40

@ScreamingFox 😎🤗😘

LunadelobosIAMTHEDRAGON · F

@Boeing You are most welcome 😀🎈🌈✨!

LunadelobosIAMTHEDRAGON · F

Alternately, one can be SO accustomed to negativity, being hypervigilant, and anticipating and have a `continency` plan.
It is like, when will the other shoe drop?

Anticipate the negative instead of just
being in a happy moment, it is not easy for trauma survivors.

Trauma fks ppl up pretty good and it is us, the grown up adult kids (as you well know), who must do the arduous work of healing, even if it takes all our lives. 🌞🪷✨

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@LunadelobosIAMTHEDRAGON I definitely have my issues with hyper vigilance but I think it's because I still need it pretty often. Once my situation changes and it will I can't wait to soften. But I still don't think I'll ever be a bubbly person like I was.

I think you're absolutely right. This will take the rest of our lives. But better late than never 🖤

LunadelobosIAMTHEDRAGON · F

@ScreamingFox Same: I am in trauma situation still and it is draining me.

Always, better late than never indeed!!!
It is true (in some cases, sadly), we can`t ever be who we were once.

But, you still could be bubbly,
just a new variety of bubbles? 😀🙏🏼🎈✨🌈🕊

I look forward to your new peace :) It will be a beacon for us all. 🤗🩵

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