I was exposed to a lot of nudity as a childhood, I guess the voyeur life chose me
I was exposed to a lot of nudity growing up, could this have put a tow in my sanity?
when I was younger (7-11 years old) my mom used to be a retailer for women underwear brand clothing and lingerie. During those days either she would go to her clients/friends house or her clients/friends would visit us home to do business. as they all got together in the living room my mom would show them the merchandises and debate in which brand is better, cheaper, higher quality, etc.
and this is where my curiosity comes in...
I remember her friends would actually take of their shirts, pants and under wears off in order to try on the merchandises. Leaving them partially naked and expose. as this was happening, I remember I would accidentally walk in the scene not being aware of what was going on and they would not care if I saw them naked. Sometimes 1-2 of them would point out "hey! there is a child here, etc" and the once that were naked would mostly replied "oh it doesn't matter, etc" and would act like I'm not there seeing them naked.
I also have an aunt who lives out of state, we used to go visit her every now and then and boy does she have the biggests boobs in the family. I remember she always used to sleep topless and whenever we all woke she would just walk around the house topless letting them puppies hang out and jiggle. I used to get so turned on innocently watching her cause of course I was a little to young back then to realize that is wrong to get turned on sexually towards family members.
another weekend we visit my aunt above and she had another visitor aside from us from the Caribbean who was just as loose as her. that weekend we shared the room and one night her, my aunt and my mom were going out that night. I was in the room watching tv and her friend comes in to get ready. as I watched the TV she took off her shirt and bra and started teasing me as I got shy and tried my hardest to focus on the tv.
this ones was back in my house in my bathroom. As a little kid I use to enjoy bubbles baths. so as far as I remember that those days I would be taking a bubble bath with the shower curtain slightly open and my mom's female friend would come in knowing I was there. They would undress and roll down their pants and undies to do their necessity knowing I was there(watching or not). I remember one day that this happen, one of them notice I was watching and she then told me as I was actually looking "is OK! your not seeing anything". had no idea what she was really trying to tell me, LOL.
Another time I remember like it was yesterday was one afternoon when my mom and I when to visit one of her best friends from childhood. It was really hot that day so everybody was just coming back from the beach. My mom's best friend's daughter and niece were one of those people who where just coming back from the beach and they were tired relaxing in their rooms while still having their bathing suits on, then the phone rings and my mom's best friends tell her daughter to answer. the daughter walks by the kitchen with her bathing suit on (which was a top and thong!), and as curious as any little kid I checked her out, my mom's best friend cough me staring and puts me in the spot (in a positive way) and says "oohh look! he so cute! he is checking her out!". I mean wouldn't a mother be upset if anybody was checking her daughter out? or was it because I was too young and not capable of anything?
lastly it was one night when my sister in law was babysitting me at her house with her mom and sisters. at dinner time my sister in law and her sisters were making dinner while their mom was in the shower and I was watching tv in the living room that was fused up with the kitchen and the hallway that leads to the bathroom. her mom then exits the showers and goes straight to her room to get dress. as their mom got dress she yelled them to do something but they couldnt hear her so still naked she leans against the door frame and repeats herself with one of her boobs hanging out. I innocently looked and she smiled and winked at me
Anyways, sorry if I sound traumatized. I think I enjoy those memories and wish they could repeat themselves now. but I just want to know; was there a possibility of me building any psychological issues because of that. I mean they always talk about how is not good for children to be exposed to nudity, but never explain what exact problems they can develop from it?
it also makes me curious on why women used to tease me this way as a kid and why cant they be like this now?
when I was younger (7-11 years old) my mom used to be a retailer for women underwear brand clothing and lingerie. During those days either she would go to her clients/friends house or her clients/friends would visit us home to do business. as they all got together in the living room my mom would show them the merchandises and debate in which brand is better, cheaper, higher quality, etc.
and this is where my curiosity comes in...
I remember her friends would actually take of their shirts, pants and under wears off in order to try on the merchandises. Leaving them partially naked and expose. as this was happening, I remember I would accidentally walk in the scene not being aware of what was going on and they would not care if I saw them naked. Sometimes 1-2 of them would point out "hey! there is a child here, etc" and the once that were naked would mostly replied "oh it doesn't matter, etc" and would act like I'm not there seeing them naked.
I also have an aunt who lives out of state, we used to go visit her every now and then and boy does she have the biggests boobs in the family. I remember she always used to sleep topless and whenever we all woke she would just walk around the house topless letting them puppies hang out and jiggle. I used to get so turned on innocently watching her cause of course I was a little to young back then to realize that is wrong to get turned on sexually towards family members.
another weekend we visit my aunt above and she had another visitor aside from us from the Caribbean who was just as loose as her. that weekend we shared the room and one night her, my aunt and my mom were going out that night. I was in the room watching tv and her friend comes in to get ready. as I watched the TV she took off her shirt and bra and started teasing me as I got shy and tried my hardest to focus on the tv.
this ones was back in my house in my bathroom. As a little kid I use to enjoy bubbles baths. so as far as I remember that those days I would be taking a bubble bath with the shower curtain slightly open and my mom's female friend would come in knowing I was there. They would undress and roll down their pants and undies to do their necessity knowing I was there(watching or not). I remember one day that this happen, one of them notice I was watching and she then told me as I was actually looking "is OK! your not seeing anything". had no idea what she was really trying to tell me, LOL.
Another time I remember like it was yesterday was one afternoon when my mom and I when to visit one of her best friends from childhood. It was really hot that day so everybody was just coming back from the beach. My mom's best friend's daughter and niece were one of those people who where just coming back from the beach and they were tired relaxing in their rooms while still having their bathing suits on, then the phone rings and my mom's best friends tell her daughter to answer. the daughter walks by the kitchen with her bathing suit on (which was a top and thong!), and as curious as any little kid I checked her out, my mom's best friend cough me staring and puts me in the spot (in a positive way) and says "oohh look! he so cute! he is checking her out!". I mean wouldn't a mother be upset if anybody was checking her daughter out? or was it because I was too young and not capable of anything?
lastly it was one night when my sister in law was babysitting me at her house with her mom and sisters. at dinner time my sister in law and her sisters were making dinner while their mom was in the shower and I was watching tv in the living room that was fused up with the kitchen and the hallway that leads to the bathroom. her mom then exits the showers and goes straight to her room to get dress. as their mom got dress she yelled them to do something but they couldnt hear her so still naked she leans against the door frame and repeats herself with one of her boobs hanging out. I innocently looked and she smiled and winked at me
Anyways, sorry if I sound traumatized. I think I enjoy those memories and wish they could repeat themselves now. but I just want to know; was there a possibility of me building any psychological issues because of that. I mean they always talk about how is not good for children to be exposed to nudity, but never explain what exact problems they can develop from it?
it also makes me curious on why women used to tease me this way as a kid and why cant they be like this now?
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