I Got Spanked In Front Of Family

@Suesinglemom He spanked me at my husbands birthday party. Family gathered and he told my husband that I needed a spanking. My husband ignored it and then my father in law took over and did it in front of everyone.

@Suesinglemom Yes. He called me closer and reached out and tipped me over his knees. It hurt but that was nothing to the shame and embarrassment.

@Suesinglemom Not at first. I thought it was over but he pulled my panties down to my ankles and continued. I cried and my husband asked him to stop.
I don't think anyone deserves to be humiliated like that.

@Suesinglemom He did but on our way home I understood he actually appreciated it. He said I deserved it.

@Suesinglemom Nothing. I just said that just because he now was one year older than me it didn't mean he was in charge.

@Suesinglemom I don't know what struck him. Maybe he's just a sadistic bastard.
How can I ever forgive him. He's my father in law. And when will I be able to see family members in the eyes again not feeling guilty?
I'm actually beginning to to doubt myself. When I meet people who were present I too feel I deserved it. What if I did.

@Suesinglemom I don't know. I just sence it. They don't mention it in words but I'm the wife who was spanked. No one told me they felt pretty on me. So I can't expect any support if it should happen again.
In that way I feel I actually was to blame

@Suesinglemom You are right but I really love him. He's a great guy. But I married his family too and they influence on his behavior. And it's not just his dad. His brother incurs him to be firm I overheard

@Suesinglemom I think that's what he meant.
I'm actually waiting for it to happen all the time.

@Suesinglemom Yes. I hope he won't do it when we are not alone.

@Suesinglemom No, but if he does. It's the waiting. Let's get over it.
If he's slightly like his family I know it's gonna happen The waiting is unbearable.

@Suesinglemom Yes. No help there. She's always been jealous. She openly told me I should be spanked red.