From top to bottom

I have always been a top, it’s just where I naturally fit but recently have been wanting to experience being in the receiving end. It’s not something I have experienced before but really feel I want to submit to some punishment.
I am hoping that this weekend I will get my wife to spank me. It’s been something we have already mentioned and although she has let me spank her in the past she is more naturally dominant so I dont think she will have any problem with turning the tables.
However much I want it I am a bit nervous about how I will be able to take it. Spankings hurt, that’s sort of the whole point of them. Have to admit that I am a bit of a coward which feels hypocritical considering the number of lovely female bottoms I have watched getting all sorts of punishments. I am hoping I will be able to take my spanking as bravely as I can. I suppose I will find out this weekend 😳