I Will Adult
I am really struggling again. I mean I'm.tired all the time. I can feel my depression coming back. I'm feeling very vulnerable.
I hate when I get this way. I crave way too much attention. I fight adulting like crazy. I lose patience easier and struggle keeping my temper in check. I stress over the stupidest things. I want to cry over everything. It makes me feel so weak minded. Especially when I have zero reason to be depressed. It pisses me off.
Times like these, I need my "Daddy". He knows this and he sees the signs. We both are too busy to indulge in our Ddlg lifestyle. So I will adult and do everything I can to adult appropriately.. I will fight my depression. I will fight my emotional pull to act out or lose my temper. I will keep in mind that my problems are small and petty. People have it so much worse.
My foul mood is nobody's fault but my own. I will Not take it out on others. If so many people in this world can put their big girl/boy panties on during the roughest times in their lives, then I can over nothing.
Who knows, maybe he will make time because he sees the the potential of a ticking time bomb about to go off. Or..maybe I can do such a good job at being a normal person, the bomb will be a dud.
Or... He could just spank me. Then everything will be put to right.
I hate when I get this way. I crave way too much attention. I fight adulting like crazy. I lose patience easier and struggle keeping my temper in check. I stress over the stupidest things. I want to cry over everything. It makes me feel so weak minded. Especially when I have zero reason to be depressed. It pisses me off.
Times like these, I need my "Daddy". He knows this and he sees the signs. We both are too busy to indulge in our Ddlg lifestyle. So I will adult and do everything I can to adult appropriately.. I will fight my depression. I will fight my emotional pull to act out or lose my temper. I will keep in mind that my problems are small and petty. People have it so much worse.
My foul mood is nobody's fault but my own. I will Not take it out on others. If so many people in this world can put their big girl/boy panties on during the roughest times in their lives, then I can over nothing.
Who knows, maybe he will make time because he sees the the potential of a ticking time bomb about to go off. Or..maybe I can do such a good job at being a normal person, the bomb will be a dud.
Or... He could just spank me. Then everything will be put to right.
46-50, F
