grand fathers penis

a few years ago i had to visit my grandfather in hospital, when i walked into his room he was laying there, his cock was in clear view, i couldn’t take my eyes of it , it was longer and thicker soft than mine is erect, since then every now and then i think about it and wonder why i missed out on the family genes,
penis envy 🤷🏼‍♂️🤷🏼‍♂️