Longterm Denial

This is my first real foray into orgasm denial, especially when paired with edging. I am used to long (1-2 months) stints without an orgasm. This time I have no idea how long Master plans to tell me the magic word, "no". Until now I could, for the most part, ignore my need but edging blows that option, that comfort, right out of the water. It more than reminds me of my arousal, it ensures I am a wet and achy mess. I go to bed aroused, I wake up wet and desperate. Yes it is frustrating, but oh it is so satisfying and so much fun too.

Yes, there are days like the last few where I feel irritable, frustrated and overly emotional. Sometimes I feel like begging @MasterLee to have mercy and permit me to orgasm. (And I'll admit to being very curious about ruined orgasms.) When I feel this way though I try to remind myself why I'm doing this. Aside from being obedient, I have a working hypothesis that after orgasm I suffer from a type of drop and my mood and libido tank. Master and I are hoping adding edging and denial with help and add.. a little extra something, to our relationship.

My edging sessions so far have been once a day with 10 edges. I am sure over time @MasterLee will change this to suit his pleasure and keep me on my toes. I'm excited to see how desperate, sensitive, puffy and wet this journey makes me. And I am curious to see what other changes occur over time.