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I developed a humiliation kink. I have discovered an unexpected submissive side.

I am 43 year old recently divorced woman. I have a son.

I often feel powerful and confident, thought sometimes I feel like I can be accidentally intimidating (I’m 6 foot tall”). I’ve learned to be a little extra friendly or goofy with new people so they don’t get that impression.

When I’m feeling low self esteem sometimes I feel too big, and get very self conscious about being larger than other women. But usually I can get out of that headspace by putting on a badass outfit that only a very tall statuesque woman could pull off.
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I identify as straight. I am exclusively attracted to men.

I moved here in this small predominantly white town about a year ago. I moved here because is very near my son's boarding school. About 10 months ago i started dating this 47 year old divorced guy. He is white. He wears flannels and work jeans. He has guns. I hate all of it. I hate the flannels on him, I hate having a gun around, and I hate the rustic camping he loves. He loves Heavy Metal. He is blasting Metallica, Pantera, Skid Row, Motley Crue, Megadeth. I love R n B music. But he is great in bed. Me and my bf are almost the same height. He's maybe a 0.5"-1" taller then me. Makes everything just so convenient. Matched sizes work great for sex, hugging, kissing and play wrestling. On high heels i am taller than him. He loves it

I befriended this 77 year old widow. We became best friends. We partnered up. Nine months ago we opened up this wine bar/store for women. About five weeks ago her 41 year old totally broke daughter moved back in this town.

We had a welcoming party at our wine bar. My friend's daughter showed up (lets call her Jay). I don't want to sound rude but when I first met Jay I honestly thought she was sooo weird and ugly. She is very short and skinny, pale face, thin lips, with shoulder length dirty blonde hair, a baggy orange t-shirt that almost came down to her knees with navy blue cargo pants. This in itself is a crime against fashion, and I remember wondering (not in a mean way) why is she wearing this fashion disaster.

I excused myself to go to the ladies room and when I got back Jay had moved around in the seats so I would be forced to sit next to her at the end of the table, away from everyone else. No biggie, I'm a social person and always up to make new friends!

She sat really close to me, almost rubbing up against me even though there was a lot of space for her to move over. Red flag no.1. I passed this off as me being big on personal space and her being a little tipsy. When she talked she would lean in really close to my face and breath stale wine and cigarettes almost directly into my mouth. I asked her to move over a few times but after a few minutes she would scootch back over.

The conversation was normal and at this point my creeper radar wasn't dinging. She mentioned that she moved back in this town with her mother because she is jobless and totally broke. She told me she was a lesbian and I asked if I was too. I told her I was straight but was seeing a man.

This is when she went off on a big tirade against heterosexuals. She took the stance that I was actually bisexual and didn't know it yet. This REALLY pissed me off. I don't appreciate being told by a stranger what MY sexuality is, thanks.

Then her mother my friend decided to head home . She is older woman, she is always tired. She needs to sleep at night.

Finally i got up and started mingling with the women. Jay got up walked up to me and started talking to me about her sad life while she was getting closer to me. Her face is exactly my breasts level. Me, an naive and very empathetic woman thought she just needed to vent to someone so I kept talking to her. Eventually she placed her hand on my shoulder and came even closer until she grabbed my boobs with her both small hands. I easily had the largest chest in my high school. But I was one of the "lucky ones" that's never had her boobs or butt grabbed, touched, or jiggled before i met this weird small white woman Jay. I’m too intimidating. Probably because of my social status, my size and my bitch resting face. I apparently intimidated a lot of people which discouraged harassment.

I told her to stop it and she apologized and walked away. It kinda shook me that she would do that to me. About ten minutes later Jay walked up behind me, put her hand between my legs and groped my ass and groin. When I whipped around she laughed and walked away. About 15 minutes later we were both in the bathroom at the same time and I was at a sink, she came out of the stall and literally went and cupped me between my legs and tried to stroke me. I freaked out and she rolled her eyes and told me she’d give me head if I’d just let her. I told her I didn’t want that, she just argued with me and said I wouldn’t even have to do it back.

Jay followed me around and kept flirting with me. She had a predatory look in her eyes that made me queasy. She thought it would be funny to grab my breasts multiple times throughout the night and make "honking" noises when she did. I was so embarrassed and didn't know what to say to her to make her stop without "overreacting" to the situation. She kept slapping my ass. I was just laughing it off . She kept going on and on about my height, looks, outfit and body. She kept talking about about how good my big curvy body looked in my shiny satin clothes. It was amazingly awkward. I’m not good with confrontation either especially when there’s no easy escape. She continued to tell me how she can fuck for hours. Very akward situation. .

Eventually I got super drunk , sat down, Jay sat on my lap and stroked her hands up and down my back & started grinding on my lap and I politely asked her to stop. She whispered in my ear while rubbing my back saying she wanted me to take her home. Jay gave me a long weird lap dance & was kissing my neck. I was super uncomfortable & out of it while she grinded all over me. This girl my employee saw this happening and noticed how uncomfortable I was. She came up and asked if i need a ride home I said “yes.” & she pushed Jay off of me, i got up and left with my employee. .

The next day Jay sent me tons of hardcore photos of herself with some really nasty sexual messages. I felt so awkward that I tried to laugh it off. Told me I needed to be having sex with her and she couldn’t believe I chose dick instead. Demanded that I send illicit photos. It was WILD. She would not stop trying to convert me to lesbianism while asking me to be her girlfriend.

Two days later i was at the wine bar store, sitting at the table, Jay walked up, sat next to me and suddenly she turned, kissed me and groped my chest. I ended up frozen for a second before I slapped her hand away , got up and went to my office. She ended up following me to the bathroom and then propositioning me to make out. I told her “nah, not interested” Then Jay started explaining to me her fascination with me. She admitted to me that she masturbated to fantasies of she and I together. She said that she need to grope me. That she can't control her hands around me. I compromised with her. I reluctantly agreed and let her. Stupidly i allowed her to grope me through clothes all she wants, as long as she is not trying to kiss me, undress me or try to have sex with me. .

Now touching my boobs and butt seems to be all she wanna do. Every time Jay greets me it’s by a playful squeeze of my boob or a light slap on my butt. Almost on a daily basis.

To be honest surprisingly I don't mind the groping THAT much its just her obsession that really gets to me. I got used of this weird small woman Jay touching my boobs and ass through clothes. I could be at my store or at the grocery store and Jay would just randomly reach over and grab my tit or come from behind and grab both of them. Oftentimes she squeeze my breasts, smacks my ass in public, etc. and then laugh. But she never touches me in front of her mother/my best friend. .

I don't want to report Jay to the police , because of her mother my best friend/business partner. Jay is her only daughter. She is overprotective of her.

I have no clue why but i allowed this short skinny weird white woman Jay who wants to have sex with me to grope me through clothes and just wanted to post and admit that i am totally confused. I am totally confused, because i am not sexually attracted to women . I identify as straight . I have a boyfriend. It’s so embarrassing but I am letting her. Maybe because she is physically completely harmless. She is not not tough and strong. She doesn’t look intimidating. She is just a short, skinny, tiny weird white woman. I am much bigger and physically stronger than her. Maybe because subconsciously i know that she is not physically threatening to me at all. To be honest i feel sorry for this small uglyish weird woman Jay. I realized that it doesn’t really cost me anything to grope me through clothes. As long as she is doing it in public through clothes I don't mind. Jay is just walking up to me and grab my boobs or butt and talk about how big they are. It is almost a daily thing. It is not bothering me most of the time. Jay has a real issue with talking about my clothes, my boobs, my butt and my height to other people. Like when she’s introduced me to anyone it’s always to the idea of “here she is-the shiny glamorous giantess with huge boobs and butt!”
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Her mom/my best friend told me that Jay is insecure, emotionally fragile, and has a complex mental health history. There is years of pain and resentment there. She is overprotective of Jay. I love her mother. She is my only friend in this town. She's a very loving and warm person . She loves gardening, she's super smart, she has a great sense of humor. I don't want to lose her as a friend because of Jay . That is why i decided to compromise with Jay

Whenever i am standing in my store talking to my employees Jay will sneak a hand around my back and grab and jokingly jiggle my boob around. She treats it like an inside joke.
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The other day on my way home i stopped at the drugstore i got out of my car , and I saw Jay with two other women in front of drugstore, she called me over and we started walking towards each other. Jay made a b-line for me, hands out, and just grabbed straight onto my boobs in front of all these people on the drugstore parking lot, properly grabbing them, I'm talking open palm, fingers digging it, I swear I felt her honk them gently. It is not bothering me but it's a little weird lol..

But I. have discovered an unexpected submissive side, and it's mainly that I just love being groped in public by Jay. I love the idea that she can't control herself around me, because she wants me so badly. I just love the letting go. I am enjoying the new experiences. I am taking it all in. But I don’t want a relationship with Jay. I am straight. I just want to be groped by this small tiny woman Jay in public. I admit that Jay is kinda dominating me. The groping by this small weird woman Jay in public is like such a regular occurance now. I love that. I am became a giant groping toy for Jay . I admit to you that i am becoming submissive. The loss of control is kinda exhilarating. Not sexually. I feel nothing special while being groped and touched by this weird woman Jay , it feels as mundane as a handshake during those times for me. But I must admit that I am getting some weird nonsexual pleasure out of the abandonment and handing over of my body, delight being used for these short skinny woman Jay's pleasure. I wish I could explain it better but can only express the feelings inside me in my poor humble way.

My boyfriend is extremely turned on by it. His sexual arousal is increased due to other people watching me getting groped through clothes by Jay. . It is as simple as that. In the past month i have amazing sex with my boyfriend because of this. My boyfriend wants to have sex every single day, multiple times a day because of this situation. He works from home and he will come over to my house to fuck me. I am mostly alone in my house because my son is in a boarding school. He lives with his two teenage daughters He is not jealous because Jay is inferior short skinny ugly woman. Jay never touches me in front of her mother/my best friend and my boyfriend, but he always want to know all the details. He is extremely turned on by this situation. This is absolutely not what I thought he would ever want, hes always been protective over me and hates it when other guys look at me or try it on. But in this situation he is not jealous because Jay is inferior short skinny ugly woman.


I feel nothing special while being groped and touched by this weird woman Jay , it feels as mundane as a handshake during those times for me. I am a straight woman, I love men, simple! I am straight and I am completely 100 percent straight. I have never been attracted to a woman sexually. But the whole situation fuels my boyfriend's arousal. Our sex life is great. My boyfriend finds this lesbian woman Jay ugly and repulsive. He says that she looks like a short skinny ugly effeminate mousy man. But he says that it turns him on that this ugly short skinny woman Jay who is basically everything i am not is groping me and rubbing me while i just stand/sit there stiff as a board. He is always talking about it. He says that me getting groped in public by Jay makes him to want me in a really intense way. He gets rock hard erections. Is behaviour like this normal with many men? my BF is extremely aroused by this situation. I have talked to him about it a bit. He constantly asks me for details about the groping in public . He's very into hearing about my almost daily getting groped by Jay experiences. It's about as hard as he ever gets when I talk about one. I just want to understand or figure out what is his kink. .



This short skinny woman Jay isn’t pushed me into having sex so far. It’s just the obsessive groping me and touching me. I know other people probably laugh at me behind my back because of this situation with this woman groper Jay. My employee said to me that I make stupid faces while Jay is groping me and rubbing me. She also said that it is bizarre that standing next to Jay I look like a giant and I let her get by with it. I just laughed and replied to my employee that we (me and Jay) just have a weird bond like that. Other people probably think that I am okay with it.

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Jay invited another woman to grope me. Two days ago on my way home from work i stopped at the grocery store. Jay was there standing in the middle of the parking lot with this short like 5 ft 2 skinny brown haired kinda masculine very poor recovered alcoholic woman in her early 50s Kathy . They walked up to me and this woman Kathy complimented my boobs. Then Jay said to Kathy “Touch her boobs if you want, she wont mind!” Then this short skinny ugly woman Kathy reached with her both hands and gave my breasts what I can only describe as a jiggle-squish. She commented on how soft they feel. I was speechless. I was just standing stiff as a board for like 5/6 minutes saying no word while they both were squeezing and feeling up my breasts, rubbing my back, touching my hair and rubbing and grabbing my ass in the middle of the parking lot. They complimented my outfit and commented that silk and satin is so smooth to the touch when rubbing. I was towering over them..



They commented that i am tall, big, soft and glamorous. People were passing by. I was humiliated as others watched us and laughed, but i found myself becoming so excited. It was an amazing experience overall. .



Yesterday i stopped at the drugstore. I got out of my car. Suddenly someone wrapped theirs arms around me from behind and cupped my boobs with their hands. I turned around and this small women Kathy was standing there with a big smile on her pale face and said, sorry I just couldn't resist. I smiled back and said no problem. Then this small woman Kathy gave both my boobs a smack from above, smack smack, real quick and walked away.


Jay at this point believes anything is acceptable to me. I am being treated as a sex object by this weird woman Jay. She even invited this woman Kathy to do the same. And yet somehow i am transfixed, i am enjoying it and i don't repel it. My boyfriend is enjoying this. I embraced the situation. I enjoy the attention and i am going to keep letting these women to grope me in public. I have a very fulfilling sex life with my boyfriend because of this. Just because I like to be groped through clothes and dominated in public by these small doesn't mean that I am not a strong woman or that I'm in an unhealthy relationship. I like the way I am.
LaLa81 · 41-45, F
I think public humiliation is one of the most powerful emotions. Getting groped in public by these women and everyone is weirded out, some people are pointing, teasing, laughing at me. I want this kind of stuff to happen more often. I learned I really enjoy people watching me being groped through clothes/humiliated/"used" by these inferrior tiny women.
Fa8393 · 41-45, M
I have to say your bf and jay don't respect or appricate you as a women . They both view you as a sexual thing . You know you are a strong beautiful large women . They just want to treat you as a object not a person . You are sexy and attractive to me as a human . I love that your taller than a normal female and your curves make you more attractive 😍 😘 😉 💕
LaLa81 · 41-45, F
@Fa8393 If I’m really honest we both needed it and it has definitely added a lot of excitement to our sex life. My boyfriend would go down on we while I told him every detail of how, when and where I was groped by these women.
Fa8393 · 41-45, M
@LaLa81 He should be turned on by you and your looks .
Fa8393 · 41-45, M
@LaLa81 did you not tell me your straight , sounds like he wants to make you more turn on by females .
Sinead65 · 56-60, F
submissives tend to be strong people in real life who use submission as a way of letting go for a bit or with a specific person. It’s ok to be situationally humiliated but never think for a second that you’re weak or anything because you made the choice to let go for a bit.
LaLa81 · 41-45, F
@Sinead65 Thanks for your response. I really enjoy the power exchange reinforcement with these small tiny weird women. . In those moments they are in control of my mind in a way that is very intense. To be humiliated by someone who’s enjoying it is to recognize their superiority over me, build them up, let them indulge in their own power and control, give them everything of myself in exchange for their pleasure. I love humiliation and being humiliated in public because it brings a balance to my life. I admit that i crave soft humiliation and being groped through clothes in public / dominated by these physically week small women who enjoy doing it.
Fa8393 · 41-45, M
They will never make you feel beautiful or respected at all . You know your size makes you confident and your weight too .
LaLa81 · 41-45, F
I love being an object for these small weird women to play with. The opportunity is there and they are taken it. I love feeling desired. Like they couldn’t resist touching me. Ignoring what I might think just to touch me like I’m a giant toy. I love the embarrassment people seeing me being groped by these women and i am not doing anything. These small women touching me, groping me, using me, is so hot. i like being seen as an object for pleasure.
Fa8393 · 41-45, M
I enjoy seeing you on here so I see what new pic you have posted of you . You deserve to be adored and loved by me .
Fa8393 · 41-45, M
I have not seen you for a while , how are things ?

 
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