I Am Interested In Exploring Sexuality

I remember when I was younger I had a freind who used to touch my boobs and we used to show each other our parts. We was just curious st the time Though and she used to come into the bathroom with me and watch me pee. At 11 I used to write love letters to my female French teacher who I fancied and at the time I had no idea why I was feeling this way and I thought I was a strange person for doing stuff with my best freind. I was removed from her class and put in with the head of year and I was warned by a man from save guarding to keep away from her and she had to avoid all contact with me. At 14 I asked my science teacher to Prom she said she wasn’t going and I felt let down and upset but I accepted it after a while. At 17 I had an intimate relationship with my college graphics tutor who was married and unfortunately she led me on. She ended it last year I was 18 when it ended. Now I’m comfortable being a lesbian and I hope to find the right woman one day to get married to and then have sex whilst married and not until. Any mean or judgmental comments will be deleted as I have matured since this and I want to be able to move on and not feel shameful for my past. Thank you.