I’m officially seeing someone - I think?
I have a confession to make. Before I started chatting online with Dom M, I had developed an interest in a down-the-street neighbour, Pepsi. Him, me and three other friends are pretty close. We probably visit together 3 times a week or so. I like cooking and it all started with me cooking far too much for me and my flat mate.
About two weeks ago, I hooked up with Pepsi.
It was great. A movie night with the gang, kissing on the back couch semi out of sight (possibly share more on this in a follow up post). Followed by an official walk-in-the-park-holding-hands-enjoying-the-sunset first date. Later, we had dinner. I cooked bolognese at his place. We did the dishes together teasing each other and laughing. Then it came. The clothes stripping, lip biting, skin against skin, hands in hair, babe yes, leg wrapping, toe curling, post cuddling action I’ve been wanting with him for months!
I mean, wow, this man. He’s like half a meter taller than I am with the prettiest green eyes and largest soft hands I’ve ever seen or felt. He’s also taller than I’d imagine in other, uhm, areas. He can’t fit that whole length inside me but boy it’s thrilling to feel him try.
These things that happen in the movies, not to plain low self esteemed Cass, who pushes every prettier skinnier sexier girl between me and the man I secretly crave. Feeling that if they get together I was somehow secretly part of it. Reinforcing that she’s better for him than I’d be with him.
But it happened. And it’s thanks to Dom M. And so, should I be grateful, do I stop exploring my sub part of me now? I honestly don’t know.
Anyway… we’ve been together a couple more times since then. What was that? Me with Pepsi or me with Dom M? Oh. Uhm. Both… 😅
About two weeks ago, I hooked up with Pepsi.
It was great. A movie night with the gang, kissing on the back couch semi out of sight (possibly share more on this in a follow up post). Followed by an official walk-in-the-park-holding-hands-enjoying-the-sunset first date. Later, we had dinner. I cooked bolognese at his place. We did the dishes together teasing each other and laughing. Then it came. The clothes stripping, lip biting, skin against skin, hands in hair, babe yes, leg wrapping, toe curling, post cuddling action I’ve been wanting with him for months!
I mean, wow, this man. He’s like half a meter taller than I am with the prettiest green eyes and largest soft hands I’ve ever seen or felt. He’s also taller than I’d imagine in other, uhm, areas. He can’t fit that whole length inside me but boy it’s thrilling to feel him try.
These things that happen in the movies, not to plain low self esteemed Cass, who pushes every prettier skinnier sexier girl between me and the man I secretly crave. Feeling that if they get together I was somehow secretly part of it. Reinforcing that she’s better for him than I’d be with him.
But it happened. And it’s thanks to Dom M. And so, should I be grateful, do I stop exploring my sub part of me now? I honestly don’t know.
Anyway… we’ve been together a couple more times since then. What was that? Me with Pepsi or me with Dom M? Oh. Uhm. Both… 😅
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