Crucifixions

I don't mean any disrespect biblically, but I can't help it when it comes to crucifixions, I really get wet, I wouldn't want it to happen to me and it's hard to put into words but the thought of being stripped naked and crucified for the whole world to see well there are no words I've read up on it and it's a horrible way to be punished yet it excites me when I go to church it is talked about I leave there wet every time