Is there somwthing wrong with me?
My bf had been expressing to me that he wants more. That he wants us to role play, be more sexual. Hes a very sexual person and thats never bothered me. But i feel like i cant fulfill that request. I dont get as turned on he does but i feel like its so easy for guys. The wind can blow left and theyre ready. Not me. Im almost never horny. I have a 1 year old with Ms Rachel on repeat in the background. Im constantly cleaning all day everyday. Im 11 weeks pregnant. I barely leave the house. I dont feel sexual on a daily basis, but without fail he does.
Hes not asking for much. He says we dont need costumes or anything, just the desire and imagination. He also understands how hard it is for us to have the opportunity to do things like that since the baby shares the room with us. (Temporarily) And that im pregnant. I can see a way around how to do the things he wants but....i dont want to do them if im not turned on. Which is never. Dont get me wrong, i get the urge sometimes, but its never because of him necessarily. Itll happen mostly when im totally alone. No baby, no him, no chores. Just me alone in my room. Or when im drunk. And sometimes its when hes around doing something entirely not sexual. He could be talking to me, or cooking or walking to the store. I get insanely turned on, but it passes quick.
Im very much attracted to him so i dont get why i dont feel the way he does for me. Hes always ready for me. (Especially because im getting bigger. He likes big women. Hes not gonna tell me that he likes that im bigger but i know) Ive talked to him about this before and it ended with me never wanting to speak on it again. He said things like I should turned on just by him wanting me. That it shouldnt be necessary to do all the extra stuff (forplay) because we're young and should be on top of each other. Kinda confused why he suddlenly wants to engage in role play if he feels that way but whatever. That i should be wet for him. Ive tried telling him that its a mental thing for me. My mind isnt quiet with all the stress of the day. Im not relaxed enough and i fear i can never be. I tell him things like being romantic would help but he doesnt really do romance 🙄 And when he engaes with me, its almost never serious. He doesnt seriously kiss me or caress my body. Kiss my neck or whisper in my ear. Hes all jokes, over exaggerats everything like one of thoes cringey videos of guys trying to be sexy but have clearly never touched a woman.
I just dont know what to do. I know i cant force it and if i tell him about this again, he'll say that im just not attracted to him, which isnt true. He wants me to make messes and initiate. Sit on his face, treat him like my toy....but i just dont want to.....I mean i do, but i dont feel the urge to.... By all accounts im healthy and as far as i know, im not lacking anything that would contribute to a low sex drive. Im into all genders and i love sex...
Idk what to do...
Hes not asking for much. He says we dont need costumes or anything, just the desire and imagination. He also understands how hard it is for us to have the opportunity to do things like that since the baby shares the room with us. (Temporarily) And that im pregnant. I can see a way around how to do the things he wants but....i dont want to do them if im not turned on. Which is never. Dont get me wrong, i get the urge sometimes, but its never because of him necessarily. Itll happen mostly when im totally alone. No baby, no him, no chores. Just me alone in my room. Or when im drunk. And sometimes its when hes around doing something entirely not sexual. He could be talking to me, or cooking or walking to the store. I get insanely turned on, but it passes quick.
Im very much attracted to him so i dont get why i dont feel the way he does for me. Hes always ready for me. (Especially because im getting bigger. He likes big women. Hes not gonna tell me that he likes that im bigger but i know) Ive talked to him about this before and it ended with me never wanting to speak on it again. He said things like I should turned on just by him wanting me. That it shouldnt be necessary to do all the extra stuff (forplay) because we're young and should be on top of each other. Kinda confused why he suddlenly wants to engage in role play if he feels that way but whatever. That i should be wet for him. Ive tried telling him that its a mental thing for me. My mind isnt quiet with all the stress of the day. Im not relaxed enough and i fear i can never be. I tell him things like being romantic would help but he doesnt really do romance 🙄 And when he engaes with me, its almost never serious. He doesnt seriously kiss me or caress my body. Kiss my neck or whisper in my ear. Hes all jokes, over exaggerats everything like one of thoes cringey videos of guys trying to be sexy but have clearly never touched a woman.
I just dont know what to do. I know i cant force it and if i tell him about this again, he'll say that im just not attracted to him, which isnt true. He wants me to make messes and initiate. Sit on his face, treat him like my toy....but i just dont want to.....I mean i do, but i dont feel the urge to.... By all accounts im healthy and as far as i know, im not lacking anything that would contribute to a low sex drive. Im into all genders and i love sex...
Idk what to do...
