My husband has recieved a conscription letter 💔

It's been 10 days since he received the letter. He was outside when they came to our apartment – I looked out the window and saw him, and whispered to him to get away, while they were still at our door, so they never saw him – nonetheless, the letter is considered received whether or not they can prove that he received it, and we had to move within 3 days because they will be looking for him, at his address in the future.

We have been staying in someone else's apartment for a week now, and from tomorrow we'll finally have this place to ourselves. I look forward to having a drink and cleaning it. I had to travel in Ukraine without my husband, to get my yearly paperwork done – that + the move, anxiety, and lack of privacy, has completely exhausted me.

I want to clarify that men are forced to stay inside Ukraine, and sadly have to hide from the army these days. We are not soldiers, we are simply civillians who try to stay alive. The people who live right above us are hiding here too. Every area has a group chat which we use to inform each other of the recruiters whereabouts. The recruiters pick up men on the streets, workplaces, and inside shops. This is a very dangerous time for my husband.

I began feeling a deep hopelessness in my entire body, the day after we moved. I kept thinking that the war won't end, and if the war doesn't end, every last man in the country will eventually die, including my beloved husband. I couldn't snap myself out of it for days.

I feel better now, and try to do things which make me feel normal, but I am very stressed. I can't wait for tomorrow to come around, and will try to get some much needed rest tonight. I wish you all a lovely day/evening. 🌃