It will always be about having more money and power.
More and more.
Otherwise you have to watch your loved ones suffer.
It will always be this way.
I thought, well I used to think, if I just survive the war and my father, and get the rest of my siblings out, the way I see being alive will improve.
You can contentment for your own suffering. It takes special kind of mind detachment to find contentment for the suffering of the rest of the world.
Watching the same horrors, the same things forever repeat themselves in other lives, and the lives of people I came to care about, it is so soul shattering and suffocating.
What am I supposed to do.
It will always be about money and power.
Always.
And even then there is plenty I can never do anything about.
I am tired of this. I really am.
I am so effing tired.
It will always be this way.
Otherwise you have to watch your loved ones suffer.
It will always be this way.
I thought, well I used to think, if I just survive the war and my father, and get the rest of my siblings out, the way I see being alive will improve.
You can contentment for your own suffering. It takes special kind of mind detachment to find contentment for the suffering of the rest of the world.
Watching the same horrors, the same things forever repeat themselves in other lives, and the lives of people I came to care about, it is so soul shattering and suffocating.
What am I supposed to do.
It will always be about money and power.
Always.
And even then there is plenty I can never do anything about.
I am tired of this. I really am.
I am so effing tired.
It will always be this way.
