I’ve never been more privileged than I am right now and I’ve never been more miserable too.
People love to say that money and power don’t bring happiness, but that’s not the point here, and frankly, that cliché is bullshit. Screw that nonsense.
This isn’t about material comfort failing to satisfy. It’s about the fact that there are some experiences some losses, some truths that once you go through them, you don’t come back. Especially when you have gone through them in your powerless state. It clings forever and you re-live them through the lives of other people, and you can only seek to have more power to end that cycle.
Seek not have.
It is not the powerlessness of power that causes your misery. Or the lack of contentment even if it adds to the burden .it is not the helplessness of money or connections and status.. It is its incompleteness. Always incomplete. And that is not a matter of perspective. What is perspective in a world where dog eats dog but self comforting delusions.
After those experiences you can’t return to pure hope and dreams. Your eyes are wide awake and you know you cannot engulf everyone's suffering. You aren't enough. Something in you is gone with that knowledge. Even now with all your power lending a route to help others , you cannot get that part back.
And from that point on, your existence feels incomplete because you are no longer complete in your hope.
I write this very much knowing sadness isn't wrong. And very much knowing that most people are uncomfortable with it. I am not. It is not a cry for help, just reflection. Sadness is as important as happiness when it comes to our human nature no matter how we love to deny that. And no matter how it hurts to see others dwell in it.
This isn’t about material comfort failing to satisfy. It’s about the fact that there are some experiences some losses, some truths that once you go through them, you don’t come back. Especially when you have gone through them in your powerless state. It clings forever and you re-live them through the lives of other people, and you can only seek to have more power to end that cycle.
Seek not have.
It is not the powerlessness of power that causes your misery. Or the lack of contentment even if it adds to the burden .it is not the helplessness of money or connections and status.. It is its incompleteness. Always incomplete. And that is not a matter of perspective. What is perspective in a world where dog eats dog but self comforting delusions.
After those experiences you can’t return to pure hope and dreams. Your eyes are wide awake and you know you cannot engulf everyone's suffering. You aren't enough. Something in you is gone with that knowledge. Even now with all your power lending a route to help others , you cannot get that part back.
And from that point on, your existence feels incomplete because you are no longer complete in your hope.
I write this very much knowing sadness isn't wrong. And very much knowing that most people are uncomfortable with it. I am not. It is not a cry for help, just reflection. Sadness is as important as happiness when it comes to our human nature no matter how we love to deny that. And no matter how it hurts to see others dwell in it.
