Brainwash is required
I think I am gonna try and block all memories related to my mtoher and her passing away.
I know it is not an easy task, but what i meant is that I will not allow myself to dwell on things. So far, I've been letting myself think and remember, I've checking photos... I've been listening to music that would remind me of it all... I should not be doing this.. yes memories will still cross my mind but i need to let it pass quicklyb and not dwell on it.. Because i am not doing so good.. I am very tired and exhausted.
I am physically consumed.. I forgot what's it like to be energetic... I need to think less about this even if i will do it forcibly... I need to hurt myself less because I've been thinking and reminding myself of things which i know are only going to hurt.. No need to be this sadistic.
I know it is not an easy task, but what i meant is that I will not allow myself to dwell on things. So far, I've been letting myself think and remember, I've checking photos... I've been listening to music that would remind me of it all... I should not be doing this.. yes memories will still cross my mind but i need to let it pass quicklyb and not dwell on it.. Because i am not doing so good.. I am very tired and exhausted.
I am physically consumed.. I forgot what's it like to be energetic... I need to think less about this even if i will do it forcibly... I need to hurt myself less because I've been thinking and reminding myself of things which i know are only going to hurt.. No need to be this sadistic.