My dopamine levels always rise during spring. They get the lowest in autumn.

But it starts happening by the end of the second cherry season around mid July.

Gets better around November then worse again until the beginning of Spring.

I know lot of it has to do with grief and PTSD events.

I have learnt to navigate life while aware of my yearly existential depression and extreme mood swings. I shedule the most important bits for when I feel the worse to keep myself busy and occupied with purpose .Free time makes me sink in deeper into the pits loathing myself and humans in general.

The Me you see these days isn't the same me in every season.

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SnickersDOM · M

I can't imagine anything you've ever done outweighing the beautiful human you are now, and thus feeling like a reason for you to ever loathe yourself, but I'm aware that I don't know enough to fully understand what causes this for you, if maye it's akin to survivor's kill or any other number of things, so I don't want to be dismissive, I just hope maybe at some point these feelings will no longer haunt you, you are the opposite of loathable ... I'm glad things like the beauty of spring and keeping yourself occupied in less blooming months help you navigate your moods too 🤗🤍