When you log on to sw after a really shit night and two hours sleep to be told by a pro lifer that my parents should have aborted

Unfortunately there are some utterly shit people on here, but do look at the positive posts. The power is in your hands to take the positive option each day, and from the looks of the photos you share of your walks etc you are making the most of your chances.
I am very glad to live vicariously through posts like your one from the beach until i get chance to go myself